Started watching Glee since Jinghui has been bugging me to do so. And my honest opinions?

It rocks! *two thumbs up* all the drama and singing.

Especially this particular song:



fucking awesome.

Although Kristine says she does prefer metal, fret not, metal is still in my blood (:

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The following sentence is for anyone who bumped into obstacles like how i did before -
The moment somebody starts taking you for granted, leave.

No one deserves to be controlled by others. i speak from experience. as hard as it is, one must display the resolve to sever any ties one has had with that person previously.

Trust me, life is A LOT better once you're able to do that (:

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Holidays are almost nearing it's end. And it's gonna be rush this rush that once again. FYP is draining, but i've never believed in whining because nothing gets done. So don't complain okay? You're not the only who's doing FYP :)

Well, this marks the end of Year 3 Semester 1 of my poly life. heh.

Final two papers held yesterday, the timings were pretty fucked up, but no matter (:

Headed down to Dover to meet up with JingHui and Hayley for a mini celebration over at Bugis. Excellent steamboat, great service, happy times.

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I can't really be bothered with you all, anymore. Know why? Cos i realised you people are just self conceited. Always thinking about yourselves, thinking you're always right. This group of friends that i've made, was fun - no doubt about it. Until the childish bitch came hogging you all, and this guy whom i was fine with, stepped all over my pride just to impress - fuck you all, if you'd think I was wrong to think that way. How'd you like it if i used you to impress some other girl? Get a life.

And here I thought that constantly rendering help for you was gonna make things better, I realised it was all nothing but a facade.

From now on I'm living for myself and JingHui, for she was the only girl who stood by me in times of need and understanding, and my childhood brothers. No more regrets. No more guilt. No more changing for the sake of pleasing. This life is mine to fuck up & love.

Thanks JingHui for the advance bday gift! heh! New Picard moneyclip wallet. woots. damn right i'm fucking elated! :D

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I don't what is going on anymore. I need something to work with. Seriously.

When you read this, you'll know I'm definitely talking about you - This is for a specific person.

I need no acceptance, I've been misunderstood my whole life. What is clear to me is that I've been trying my hardest and utmost best to be acknowledged in whatever form or shape it may be. And I may be a dick, but at the very least, I've tried to validate my own existence. Have you?

Think about it.

"If you can't take me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best" - Marilyn Monroe

I've explained myself time and time again for naught. Just cause I have a temper doesn't mean I'll lash out for no reason now. I promised, that I would never lash out for no rhyme or reason every again, because I knew I'd be hurting you. Why did you even think that I got agitated? - This whole paragraph is for another person.

This twisted world, someday I'm gonna bend it to my will. I shall judge all the filth you, mankind, have created in your bid to save your own skins.

Sometimes the cards we are dealt are not always/never fair. This is something we all have to deal with. However we must keep smiling & moving on - In my case, I'm smiling AND moving on.

I honestly didn't know blocking someone from facebook = automatically deleting them from friend's list. so i thought you deleted me first. bahh no matter you'll probably say that i'm still lying anyways. so doesnt really matter.

i was almost convinced to sit down and talk. but after seeing those comments. haha. fat hope (:

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let's ignore the unnecessary shall we?

Anyways Lab Management and Wastewater Treatment modules are over and done with.

Lab was alright i guess - hopefully a B+ would be within grasp
Wastewater turned out awesome - B+ or A? haha!

Next monday sucks to the max. final 2 last papers. but one at 8.30AM and one at 4.30PM! WTFFFFF ZOMFGGGGG.

kay nvm. positive! haha!

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P.S - am i really that much of an open book that i'm told that i'm only stubborn with my mouth but i'm actually all mush on the inside. :/

WHO KNOWS?

BYEEEEEE!

on a lighter note i'm starting to like this song. even though i'm not such a fan of hers. haha!

look who's talking yaw. the pot calling the kettle black.

Say what you want about me. But the fact cannot be changed that you are, nothing but a selfish, egotist and possessive person (:


Magic words of my life?

Step off bitch. You're outta MY life, its gonna stay that way (:

you're outta my life, so stop trying to act like you dominated (:


heh.


Morgan is so dope that you're no longer his bestfriend if fact, he's doubly glad that you're not even his friend anymore because you did nothing but caused trouble for him with your childish antics (:

it's the end of the line for you. so don't you even fucking dare call me childish when you're no better yourself.

Changed for the better and see a better, brighter future ahead of you. i took the advice given by my friends and tried making amendments toward my attitude, but alas, the only thing i see from you is that you're being selfish, childish and ridiculous towards me.

Surely people would agree that in most cases, when problem arises, both parties are to be blamed. i don't like to do such things like pinpointing whose fault it is.
I like things to be kept simple when i know i am wrong, and you simply assume that i'm totally wrong. at times you ARE at fault too.

people around me have been asking why am i able keep such a person as my bestfriend? honestly i cant really answer them. Yes it was wrong of me in the past to lose my temper so easily, which is why i decided i need the change of my attitude. Many times now in the recent weeks i've curbed my temper towards you. you who took me for granted, you who think you can control my life, you who never want to lose your face in front of others, you with that fucked up ego of yours.

i've apologised to you, with regards to the recent issue, because i believe in treasuring the friendship more than my ego, but you feel you're plain right when you said i said it for the sake of saying it. sure by all means feel and say it that way.

a very good friend of mine has opened up my eyes to how i really feel towards this issue, she told me the following:

'After so much you can judge for yourself whether she's for keep but don't let anger overwhelm you. Have a thorough thought k :)'

and some have told me to let it go as a guy,

However, after much contemplating, i have realised that this so called friendship between us is over. it really is, how much we wanted each other in the past is all in the past. you fucked your chance now even after i fought back for our friendship.

i ain't gonna let my anger get the better of me this time round, if you haven't noticed i haven't lost my temper just yet as i've made the promise to everyone to change my attitude for the better as i don't want them to be affected when i lose my cool - and you can't take one small thing i've said towards someone else who isn't even part of us to begin with, then i'm really sorry, you don't deserve a bestfriend like me. and yes, this time i'm not going to apologise anymore, because like you said - the first thing we utter is what we really feel, and this is what i really feel at this point of time.

there's a reason as to why you're always winning your quarrels with others, it's because no one really bothers with your fucked up attitude and character anymore, it's not that you're immune to people, it's because everyone else is immune to you. so you think you've every right to do as you please. Someone should really put you in your place. and make you realise that you're just plain childish and trying to control me.

One day you will realise how much I was there for you, when i'm gone, well now i am. i dont need you in my life, and i think my life would be much more blissful and peaceful without your presence.

friends, strangers whatever - teammates are all we'll ever be now. when i'm done with my poly life, you're officially out of my life - for as long i will live (nothing is forever thats why i wont say forever). i'll erase your very existence from my database, for you do not deserve me nor do you deserve a placement within my wonderful poly memories.

goodbye. and be well. it was nice knowing you - i guess.

P.S.

To all related parties who are reading this, i've said my piece and whether or not you believe me is entirely up to you. whether you decide to believe her is also up to you. j

Just know that i'm saying this now because i'm not only prepared to lose this friend, i'm prepared mentally to lose everyone related as well. not forcing you people to take sides, but see for yourself whether i've been treated fairly.