talk talk talk procrastinate procrastinate procrastinate.

is that all you EVER do?

when the fuck are you ever gonna be more disciplined?

look here. remember this. burn it deep in veins of your brain.



Without pain from bleeding, without sacrifice from everything else, you get nothing at all.

another great song!



(I am here to tell you a story.
A story that will torture your thoughts by day and poison your dreams by night.
And though I will do my best, there are no words
that can be written nor brush strokes laid on canvas
that can describe the stark and utter horror of the night that Annabel died.
The emptiness will haunt you.)

This is a nightmare, is my Annabel really gone?
My eyes are stung by daylight, I find it hard to breathe.
Her body teases me as the sun reveals the dawn.
The smell of blood still crawls, I kiss you softly goodbye.

Baby, lay in my arms and cuddle me close.
Soon this will be just an awful memory...
Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

I watch the blood drip from the corners of your mouth.
Your icy flesh is lying, your pallid skin still glows.
I'm starting to believe what my eyes are seeing now.
You're still so beautiful and yet so morbidly still.

Baby, lay in my arms and cuddle me close.
Soon this will be just an awful memory...
Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

Sweet revenge... He will pay, he will pay my dear.
Empty eyes accuse a face so evil, I'm coming undone.
The mirror says it all, a crimson story of innocence lost.
Empty eyes accuse a face so evil, I'm coming undone.
What have I done to her?

So terribly memory returns of her struggle, of her screams, of her.
Lord forgive me!
My stomach heaves as I see the blood that covers me.
Blood that was once hers.
I'm a monster!

... Such an awful memory... Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

Sweet revenge... He will pay, he will pay my dear.

(A mirror never lies.
They know.
Everybody knows.
Do you not see what they see?
A mirror never lies.
I see what they see. Everybody knows. Everybody knows.)

cool shit. man.

MONDAY BLUES LAAAAA. TUESDAY BLACKS LAAAAA. WEDNESDAY BLUE BLACKS LAAAA.

SIANNNN.

best wishes to my bff - charmaine and my dear gabriel lee.

headed to meritius mandarin for the international buffet for charmaine's celebration. woah stuffed full.

and stayed over at gabriel's chalet and we got so siao with whatever we did - okay correction - got so siao with whatever ME did. LOL

smirnoff vodka + ruby red absolut + gin = ?

(:

happiness thats what. haha!

okay. i just started the twitter thingamajig. i mean. i TOTALLY dunno wtf is going on LOL.

anyways. do add me up if you have twitter?

death_aaron

and yes. how to train your dragon is an absolute MUST watch!

a music video describing a very accurate feeling i am having at this very moment.

When something's pure

How can people just say
We're not meant to be
And when something's true
How can people just
Keep me away from you

Suddenly I'm all alone
Pushed away for nothing wrong
Don't you have the guts to say
How you feel about me

Out of the blue
They said we couldn't be together
I have to get over you
We've been given no choice
We have no voice
Out of the blue

Can't even call
On the telephone
Don't even know
If you're at home
But to control
Just how we feel
Between you and I
Not for one to steal

Suddenly I'm all alone
Pushed away for nothing wrong
Don't you have the guts to say
How you feel about

Out of the blue
They said we couldn't be together
I have to get over you
We've given no choice
We have no voice

Just wanna hear what you've gotta say
Are you feeling the same
'Cos I'm not ok
Thought when we met
There was something more
But the others said no
They shut the door

Out of the blue
They said we couldn't be together
I have to get over you
Been given no choice
We have no voice

Out of the blue
We knew we shouldn't be together
Don't wanna get over you
Love makes a choice
It has no voice
Out of the blue

another band i'm loving - Alesana.

and this song?

wow much? anti christ lyrics once again <3

enjoy!



Look at you, you miserable fool!
Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears
God's turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut
And now you're knocking on the devil's door!

hell yea!

yes!

chemistry - A
molecular cell biology - A
environmental sciences - B
immunology - B

what more could i ask for?

happy right now. but i need more 'A's to pull my gpa up :D

on a high note - my attachment is ending! YAYNESS! counting down 13 days to go! all that shit. working under the scorching and blazing sun, under the unpredictable rain which comes and goes like the winds, and... the occasional dog shit stepping i have witnessed other ppl do are simply hilarious. like what they all say. KARMA - comes around and sticks a knife in your asshole, no, LITERALLY.

i laugh and the next thing i know? *piak* DOGGY POOOO. wah but i was lucky only to have stepped a LITTLE bit of it. my colleague stepped on a lucky pile FULL throttle. HAHAHAHA.

so what's next actually?

alright i have my bff's bday makan out this weekend coupled with gabriel's 21st(the one from the church i used to go) and... MAYBE- JUST maybe i might be heading to supper club to party the night out. LOL

sheesh i dunno. i hate crowds man.

oh yes yes. my 'ah' family's outing would hopefully be a visit to Universal Studios!

i need the god dammit adrenaline rush in me. too docile for far too long.




i'm really looking forward to Battlestar galatica and Jurassic Park! okay i know thats lame. but hey i really do love dinosaurs, ever since i was young i was just fascinated with the dinosaurs and yes the opportunity came last year's march where i went to Melbourne on exchange and got the chance to excavate real fossils! :DD excited much? haha.

okay. enough said.

last piece of shit i'm gonna leave here.

a music video - Lamb Of God - Laid to Rest



watch it and see if you get the same interpretations as i do (:

the song's about man losing time and life, trying to run from living, trying to hide from himself, and in his duality - to catch himself and thus save himself at the same time - to open eyes to actually living and not running away. When one catches another it means that a man managed to get a grip of himself and opened himself to life.

Cheers.

lamb of god *thumbs up*

metal my sanctuary of peace - despite the loud banging. wahaha.



You want to blame me for the way you hate yourself
You think you can find who you are in someone else
Criticize who already found their positioning
You've got a long way to go

So go and weave your tale of woe convincing yourself it's all
You're so set to fail
Somewhere you finally lost your way
Only yourself left to betray

A needless hippie repairing your despair
You take great measure to appear like you don't care
The decision and persuasion must deceit thee properly
You lost it before you began

So go and weave your tale of woe convincing yourself it's all
You're so set to fail
Somewhere you finally lost your way
Only yourself left to betray
Only yourself left to betray

So go and weave your tale of woe convincing yourself it's all
You're so set to fail
Somewhere you finally lost your way
Only yourself left to betray
Somewhere you finally lost your way
Only yourself left to betray

the lyrics also damn zai. woohoo.

i especially like - So go and weave your tale of woe convincing yourself it's all. You're so set to fail.

damn nice. anyway his vocals are zai to the core. time to turn in. nights all! (:

oh yeah btw. i'm halfway through my attachment. living life like a bangalah. dislocated my shoulder slightly while carrying the heavy stuffs. whoops. haha. anyway. time to press on Aaron! (:

Blasphemy in your eyes, spare me your pathetic lies
Sympathy I despise, just give me your chaos cries
One night he came to me and spoke the words of heresy
One day I will prevail, in other words your last day

You and I are living a lie
Sick of always denying
The omen will come true
And there’s nothing you can do...

MY EYES WERE ABLAZE, WHEN EXPOSED TO YOUR LAST PRAYERS
MY MIND FILLED WITH HATE, SLITHERING TOWARDS YOUR GATE
I´M THE SERPENT THAT COILS AROUND YOUR NECK
ARMED WITH THE VENOM TO RAVAGE YOUR FRAGILE MIND

Antichrist will arise, and ignite your precious sky
Anarchy your demise, it was all never-ending lies
One boy we all will blame for what he at last became
This boy a forbidden key to our own extinction

anti christ song i suppose? getting more into it. but i'm loving it.

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busy week ahead. fyp meeting soon. tsk. can't believe the shitty situation i'm always stuck in.
just read her blog. then i saw her mentioning the removal of her emo post? then i pondered to myself - how come she was able to move on so easily and i wasn't? there i was hoping at some point we could gotten back together. zzz. okay whatever. erase that bullcrap.

and the thing was, wow to myself i got jealous LOL. when we were together, she didnt mention me ONCE on her blog. and now she's happily blabbering the guy's name. zzz.

can someone please tell me CBB means? (no vulgar interpretations PLEASE)

pissed off with everything and everyone now.

the only current remedy. _|_ Y.O.U