The values that I believe in play a very important role in my life. These important values have been greatly influenced by my family. My values include freedom and the most important value above all, virtue. The belief’s I have are important because they shape the way I live my life in a way that I think is desirable to me and those around me. I believe that to value something is to assign love and importance to it, because it is probably something we hold dearly to.

I have had the fortune of being raised in a strong family background. I have two loving parents that have always supported me and taught me life's lessons while also letting me develop my own morals and values by their example. Their love for me has shown me great examples of how to be kind and loving toward others. My family has also placed me in a great environment, surrounded by people who care and are very loving. However, I would wish to elaborate further on ‘virtues’ which I’ve mentioned in the earlier paragraphs.

To simplify things, virtue basically means having the quality of doing what is right and avoiding what is wrong. Yet teenagers such as myself would often knowingly step into the quarters of mistakes and probably end up facing undesirable consequences. But I think we all agree that with making mistakes, people learn much more, because the experience is somewhat akin to the phrase – pain makes the body master of the mind. When there’s something wrong, we tend to pay more attention to it and learn from it so as not to commit again.

Through all the mistakes we learn, however, the value ‘virtue’ which I hold strongly to makes me and many others contradict ourselves because I feel that when an individual pursues virtue consciously, that individual is in actual fact, not virtuous at all. Reason being that we were granted freedom, which we gladly exploited because we felt it was more of a ‘need’ than a ‘want’. And finally we end up trying to good stuffs to make up for the ill things which we’ve done. I believe that is a yes for all, if not most people?

And when that happens, we’re causing trouble like toppling dominoes, more lies to cover up our mistakes, which leads to more lying, the ultimate snowball effect. Which is precisely I feel that the only way to demonstrate that I’m true to my values is to be myself, and just basically think of the consequences before acting. Nothing more nothing less, too much thinking and being self conscious of our values which are etched in us would probably make us go mad before we even reach adulthood.

essay which i helped Vivian to write. LOL. too long alr nv squeeze my brain juices HAHA.

headed over to SP to support Aishah yesterday after school - saw azie and amanda too. haha. mr and ms SP. was pretty okay. except for some contestants which were SERIOUSLY buang.

buang till i dunno what to say man. LOL

and yes! im proud to say that Aishah is Miss SP 09/10

:D:D

tired week. W55P field trip to admiralty park was pretty fun though. haha!

class picture! (:
minus away the annoying andre on the extreme left of this picture lol.

think my photography skills were not too bad despite given such a cock camera. LOL. epic i swear. i thought the camera couldnt zoom. HAHAHA.


the picture with the ants was cool and i never knew it was the larvae secretion which the worker ants used to 'stick' the leaves together. cool shit uh? and the last one with the weird looking fruits are known as the Nipah Palm fruits - they're responsible for the 'gula melaka' which are used in chendol etc. AND! they are the ones responsible for the attap chi too! OMGOMGOMG. (: (:

pp assessment falls on the 28th this month. cant believe i actually mixed up the dates and thought it would clash with my trip to japan. i even emailed the person i/c LOL.

epic. and i made up some white lie that i had to pay my respects to my grandfather who lived in japan blah blah black sheep. HAHAHA. opps. :X

okay anyway, events lined up for the upcoming holidays would be:

1. W55P BBQ @ East Coast Park on 19th Dec
2. W55P post Christmas gathering over @ Vivian's on 21st Dec LOL
3. Trip to Okinawa Japan - flying off on 22th Dec. oh gosh -.-

busy 3 days lol. zzz.

but nonetheless! looking forward to it! heehee! :D:D

oh and yes! i've found something of interest.

ever heard of the twin married blades? Kanshou and Bakuya.

cool shit names and behind those names laid a history which was pretty interesting too.

Kanshō and Bakuya (干将・莫耶, Kanshō and Bakuya) are the "married" twin swords. The black sword is Kanshou, the Yang, and the white sword is Bakuya, the Yin.

A pair of swords with a strong bond between each other, not only they attract each other but are said to return to their owner when lost. Their quality as swords is high due being made with the best materials and a human sacrifice, and they also serve as ceremonial tools for socery. When both are equipped, magic resistance and physical resistance improve for the wielder, apparently.

But words thought to be a charm against demons are carved on the blades - okay i don't know what they mean by this lol

Divine skills, flawless and firm
Our strength rips the mountains
Our swords split the water
Our names reach the imperial villa
The two of us cannot hold heavens together
—Two rivals, walking their own life.

They were made by the famous craftsman Kanshou (Gān Jiàng) in the Spring and Autumn Period. It seems he was more crafting for the sake of crafting than for the idea behind the creation. Kanshou's wife, Bakuya (Mò Yé), gave her life to melt the metal and create the married swords that represent the Yin and Yang.

cool huh? (: kinda heart wrenching.

okay whatever. i'm starting to go back into Norse mythology. where the 13 knights protected Yggdrasil aka The World Tree.

okay enough crap. i'm hungry. lets eat! (:

hmm gymmed. like not that long.

chionged like some mother fucking idiot. i also dunno why. for what reason, for what purpose. LOL

oh yeah. i vomitted. AGAIN. wtf! spoilt my gym mood. zzz

and now vivian is asking me to help her right an essay - What are some of the values and beliefs you hold strongly to? Please provide examples of how you have demonstrated these in your actions.

okay. time to KO. nights~!

hooked laaaaaaaaaaa

the crimson by Atreyu

FREAKING HARDCORE THEIR HEAD BANGS OMGAWD.



i particularly like the chorus:

Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?
Will you still kiss me the same,
When you taste my victim's blood?
So crimson and red,
I feel it flowing from your lips. (Crimson and red)
My heart is dead and so are you.

*wriggle eyebrows violently*

music heals the soul. apparently this kinda genre of music does for me.

lol

oh man fucking hope i dun needa go under the knife for my back injury.

eeeeyuh. doctor made it sound so bad.

okay maybe it is really bad. but he didnt need to exaggerate till i was stumped. rawr.

slip disc at the age of 16. hmm not bad. good job aaron. LOL

friday the 13th was really jinxy.

rather epic actually. but erm. got one part of the jinx was kinda saddening for me. zzz. wlao. pek chek. ugh.

so what's next?

there's lab for chemistry to look forward to next week, and the much anticipated environmental science field trip! woohoo!

oh yeah. PP assessment date is out. i have to go get my poster done FAST.

thanks Amni for your poster! at least i have something for reference \m/

heehee.

and yes of course, my environmental science class w55p. a chalet or bbq soon on dec 28th. wheeets!

so many things which people do to try to cheer me up. woah. thanks guys.

appreciate it! (:

but then again. im feeling kinda sad whenever i think about it. tried hard. but hey. not easy. sheesh.

boomz shingz fa cai.

im outta here.

her tears don't fall, they crash around me, her conscience calls the guilty to come home.

hmm..

honestly i didnt know what was i doing this morning. zzz. normally i would wake up, bathe, etc, get ready for school.

this morning i stoned at my window for 15 mins. and i got on the wrong bus. 506 instead of 59. ended up in jurong east. great job aaron.

immunology class today. totally had no mood to do the work. sheesh. fucking MHC class 1 and 2 molecules.

ugh.

woke up, opened my eyes to nothing to look forward to.

kena scolded by Li Han. kena until gao gao(damn fucking bad it means LOL)

haiya. and nice song. intro-ed by Li Han too.



It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching
For any sign of the ones he used to love
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left)
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There's more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies shes been fed
She's searching for no one (but herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is here
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

(So tell them)

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
You're not, you're not alone

dunno if i should attend the bachelor party which Aaron Yeh invited me to. aye. tempted. but maybe not. i'll still stay true no matter what the circumstances. (:

just so you know.

your gaze transformed my very core. you are my essence, my heart.

thinking about stuff makes me frustrated.

sheesh. maybe we're just too busy to even get a foothold of one another.

okay nvm. fml anyway.

O lvl MCQ tmr. last paper.

the only good thing so far. fml x 2

heading back to melbourne again this coming march. for IEP attachment. guess it would 4 weeks of fossil digging and 2 weeks of student leader blah blah black sheep.

fml x 3

or maybe more like my life is average. hmm.

oh well. so zzz. zzz till the point where i'll hemorrhage and just die. boomz, shingz = BYE (:

another MV.

think it would be a good illustration for my feelings right now? sheesh im not sure anymore, im not sure who i am no more.

fml.

waaaa fucking sad.

zzz.

i just wished that sometimes i was able to read your mind, and know you much better.

when i think about it, i felt pretty disappointed about myself.

i can seriously just go die or something. i need to MIA myself once again, bury my head in my books and study.

guess thats the only way i'll find my solace?

but my mind about you has been made up. and i intend to keep the promise which i've made to you. (: