bye guys!

i'll be away in china for a week!

you can still contact at 81261296 if urgent - call/msg lol

thinking back when i was in secondary school. we'd be having fun, laughing, crapping, joking. 5B was one of the bestest bestest class i was ever in. probably due to the fact that i've had classmates throughout my whole secondary school life :DD

some only 3 years but who cares? haha. we were one of the most notorious classes in macpherson. we had shitheads like me, zul, andi, su qing, tejan, mark, hong qing, ting ze, zi heng, lai ping and many many more! of course not forgetting the wonderful ladies - esteen, joanne, jevonne, qi bin, kar yin, nan di still have somemore LOL but erm (okay fine!) i forgot some of them lol

i did stupid things such as this


or this


LOL

our class was such a fun place to go. with all the crap we got every single day, it made school a place we'd look forward to going everyday! (:

guys i still rmb the time when mrs robert sat on the teacher's table and she broke it! HAHA! rmb?! LOL

P.E lessons were one of the best. rmb the guys toiling on the field getting all dirty and then we'd try to kay siao and sneak in the computer labs during other lessons smelling all sweaty. haha!

we stunk like hell. i know cos i was one of the smelliest LOL.

then came reality - N lvls for us. some of us went on to secondary 5 when some had no choice but pursue private institutions or just go out to start working.

a class photo of N4G



N5B just got better. we became so much more of a class. fun and all.

but like what everyone says - good things dun last - sad but true.

graduation day - i felt so sian on that day. why? because i felt that our class was gonna be seperated after the O lvls. ):

N5B - you guys are all missed dearly. (apart from those guys whom we've been keeping in close contact! LOL)





however, i feel that it was the effort we made especially the 5B clique to stay together. we got together on each other's birthday. it felt elating to see all my friends whom we've been seperated as class to still be doing well (:

but we've definitely had a ball of a night at prom. imagine some of us going to drink after that. i think i got drunk, along with hong qing. LOL haha!

the 5B clique! <3



i really miss secondary school.

why did we always lament when we were younger? not realising that secondary school would be one of the best experiences in our lives?

of course, these memories have already been deeply etched within the banks of my heart. they'll be with me, and they'll die with me.

i have a question though - will we still be in contact 10 or 20 years down the road?

too many things too little time yo.

saturday morning - Kumon, church? in the afternoon? lol. slack till late at night.

sunday - WHOLE DAY busy with ivy's wedding. in case you dunno how she is - she is the staff of kumon who took care of us from SKCC. thks alot! you rock! :DD

i'd probably be staying till like 12 or 1 am at the wedding? by 4 am which is already monday morning - i have to be at the airport -.- im flying to hainan island.

omgg.. im missing out with W45M's holiday activities. T.T

they're going to sentosa. oh well, i guess there's always next time. but... ARGHH~!

i'll be getting some stuffs for the class though. :DD dun worry ALL edible. NO melamine. LOL

im glad we talked even though grace was right in the middle. face to face. (:

i think we really cleared up a lot of stuff. i thank you.

i feel so much better. and lol i apologise for crying. gosh. i havent cried like in a LONG time.

lol.

and hearing your side of what happened in sem 1. i guess i wasnt really aware enough of how you felt.

but yeah! feel so much better! :DD

hmm.. went to church on sunday. lol. fun lah. but we went to airport T3 after service. kinda fun though. haha. met up with yao zhong and went to send zhi hao off.

geez. sometimes i find life so difficult. full of setbacks and all due to misunderstandings. but i guess what bf said is really true, she gave me a good scolding last night lol. guess what she said - you just don't have the confidence to find out what's wrong.

sounded so right when she said that to me. i thought in my heart that things would change once i tried to voice myself out. but all i did was so superficial.

things arent changing for the better or is it? haha. perhaps i just gotta observe a lil more. bf was telling me to be more thick skinned in such situations. but i guess im really not confident to find out what's wrong?

kin shen said it too - people view me as someone outspoken, confident of everything and then kin shen added on - but when it comes to really doing it, you seem so afraid of it.

gosh im feeling it man. zzz.

things havent been going that well. but i guess i really gotta try.

yesterday i had one of the best news that ever happened to me. went to school for UT then left with grace and kin shen - had a long chat with grace and she chided me along the way too. lol.

headed to the hospital for my appointment with the specialist. wahh shit man - go up and down for x ray. press my hand non stop - freaking pain! but nvm i could endure. ended up the doctor said that my volar plates were fractured or something i dunno lah! LOL.

came up with an equation - DOCTORS' WORDS = DUN UNDERSTAND = BUT IF UNDERSTAND = CAN BECOME DOCTOR

LOL

anyways i'll make it happen man. I WANT MY LIFE TO BE BETTER!

CANOE TEAMMATES - I'LL BE JOINING TRAINING SOON, NO PADDLING BUT I CAN GO RUNNING, COS MY CAST IS OFF.

but definitely things have changed for the better. i know it. hahaha.

hmm hectic weekend up ahead - should i go church this sat? sunday is ivy's wedding, and i'd probably be there the whole day until like 12 am or 1 am? LOL. and at 4 am i have to be at the airport, i'll be flying off to china - hainan island. for a week, wah sian, whole holiday burnt! T.T

looking forward to everything though!

Aaron! Thrust Forth and Don't Look Back!

aye. had a super nice dream about my secondary school class. HAHAHA. trust me the senario was super funny. everyone was in it man! esteen, joanne, jevonne, ting ze, hong qing, gregory, anthony, zi heng, lai ping and whole bunch more!

i think i was probably laughing in my sleep. and guess what? i managed to sleep thru the whole night. YAY! anyways i feel super awkward and super pissed. cos mom shook me in order to wake me up. and when i opened my eyes, her face was right in front me! LOL. she asked me: why are you smiling and laughing even when you're slping?

gosh she spoilt the whole scene T.T but nvm that! haha! bathed and went over to kumon to help. man its so difficult to mark with my left hand in a cast zzz.

went off around 12. helped about 3 hours odd. then sian like hell. was supposed to go out with bertrand to celebrate his birthday. then he told he wants to party and club till the next morning. i was you crazy uh? ended up didnt go too.

had a nap and went to look for bill and zhen bin. again was supposed to join for chopper riding. then my parents were SO against it. 'later your hand this lah, later your hand that lah'

aiyo! die then die lah. pek chek leh sometimes talk to them. and that stupid old man of mine turned off my laptop without even asking. i was doing my report for kumon. i spent like THREE freaking hours on it! and it wasnt saved at all. GG - GOOD GAME! -.- and he said wasnt his fault cos i didnt respond him as i talking to mom. wth! seriously! stupid old man! cant stand him sometimes. zzz.

now im slacking at home. wth lah. its so boring. going to peck's church tmr, i think they'll be celebrating jolie's birthday. i hope wendy neo doesnt go around announcing my arrival again! LOL

arghh i wanna go for esther's flea market thingy tmr! I WANNA SOME NEW CLOTHES! BUT THE TIMING IS CLASHING! T.T

i just hope you understand. i didnt mean to be offensive in anyway in my previous post.

i want our class like before. as grace, kinshen, kaijie had given me their wake up calls, i treasure it even more so. they said that i wasnt myself after knowing the news of the incident regarding my canoe.

but i just wanna talk with you, laughing, smiling and crapping like when school first started. i dun wanna things to become awkward. its hard for you too i know.

and with all my moodswings and stuff, i'm already feeling guilty. im sorry for affecting everyone around me.

so yeah! FRIENDS? i wanna crap with you and the class like how we used to.

:DD

and especially to you guys - kinshen, grace, johnson, kaijie, peckhoon, annabelle and shiqi. you guys are the best newfound friends anyone could ever ask for! im REALLY sorry about everything i've done. im such a dick i know.

and i should really say something. i never really enjoyed singing. because i dun really know HOW to sing and due to the song preferences lol. but i truly enjoyed myself a whole lot. maybe it was because everyone sang along and at least i didnt feel like a shithead! HAHA!

LETS GO AGAIN SOMETIME YEAH?

(:

Labels: friends. they're the world to me

went out with peeps of W45M today after school.

happy birthday johnson. im sry for knocking your head. i really didnt mean it. lol

anyways had fun (i guess) singing. i dun normally sing. but hey i guess just sing it! lol.

and this post is written in expression towards you. yes you know who you are, and you'll know its you if you actually read this post.

i know the class has made sensitive jokes about 'us'. i dun like it too. but we're just friends nothing more right? i know that in my heart. so why care about others and turn a black face when people tease me or you? its not in my character to ACTUALLY write things like this here, because i normally go up to the person and face him or her squarely, or you could say to face one another's heart from the front.

because if i do this, im very sure that the other party would know that im doing this honestly, sincerely and seriously. i know i have been kinda moody these few days. im pissed with the class and all. but i definitely know that if i keep it up facing you squarely, our friendship will never go wrong. this is what i believe and i want to make it happen. but i cant really do that with you avoiding me and all. i know you want prevent such gossips, but cant you see we're drifting apart as friends? the way you do things simply makes me feel sad. i walk in front to you, you walk to the back, i walk to the back and you end up walking the front - you treat me as though im some sort of plaque. i know im not as funny or humourous as kj or john or kinshen, but im trying my best to be me, arent i? times flies and waits for no man, im of no exception, you too right? 6 weeks of school have already passed, i dun want the remaining 10 weeks to just simply fly by without me resolving the issue and i end up regreting the whole fiasco. i've made a mistake of flaring up like a volcano (due to my character) with my sem 1 classmates and i ended up souring relationships in the class, naturally i dun not wish for history to repeat itself. its my mess i'll clear it up.

friends are a part of a small group of people that we can only meet so many during our lifetime. i treasure friendships and relationships very deeply, that of cos includes you and everyone around us. and i thank you for caring for a dick like me. even though i do not know if i deserve it. and if i sound a little offensive im sorry once again. i dun mean it that way.

time for me to try to sleep! SLPING PILLS HERE I COME!

Labels: sore thumb

i tried to see and embrace the good things in life. but good things never last.

thats for sure.

feh! why do i even bother any longer?

Aaron you're just so pathetic - pathetic up to a point of immeasurable extent, you get upset over matters because of friends. You treat them like a part of you and what do you get? its was like this in W26L, seems like W45M will be history repeating itself once again. Your friend from W45M tried talking things with you. and what did you do? shove a tonne more words back into him.

well done good job yo.

'people like people who like them'

i like people dun i? but i dun see people liking me.

Labels: Aaron you're pathetic

im seriously getting sick of class. -.- my left thumb got worse. now its in a cast. HOLY shit! wth is going in my life?

im tired of coming to school, i've got no motivation to come to school when there's ABSOLUTELY no reason for me to attend school - especially since im off canoe training for a long period.

-sigh-

my class is getting more and more clique-ish. apparently im the one they REMEMBER at the very end or worse still, they forget all about me.

going home is one of the most torturous - they can walk and when they do not see me, what do they do? CONTINUE walking. i seriously mean like HUH? whats with you guys man? you do not see your friend and you keep walking. wtf?

im trying my best not explode because i've a made mistake of doing this in my previous class, thus souring friendships in the class. its not right of me to do so either. but these past events have my tolerance level zoom skyhigh - WAY WAY past my limitations. im on the verge of a violent eruption and i dun think anyone'd like it.

but like what shiqi said which i find very true. the class has fun people but cliques form over time, and those who listen to mandarin songs apparently are clicking together, and i find myself belonging to neither side.

im trying my hardest to maintain the high energy i have but everything i do just doesnt seem good enough.

sad isnt it?

the LAST thing i wanna see is the clique in which i was orginally in, being formed nicely without ME inside of it. you guys dun see do you? that im gradually drifting away.

sympathy is so pathetic, or rather IM the one pathetic, i cant live without friends as i find a neccessity in MY life, but all im getting is crap after crap.

motivation to attend W45M is a big fat fat zero. motivation to actually attend school itself WITHOUT canoe training, needless to say - negative digits.

i dun really care no more.

all i can do is just keep up with the smiles and pretend.

and to the peeps of W45M - i got nothing to do with her. keep up your senseless jokes and i, PERSONALLY promise you guys that you hear or see nothing but the side of me which you guys will definitely abhor.

Labels: get well and chiong for canoe

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile(: (am i like that? lol)

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to. (This is SO SO very true)

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice. (Oh is it? haha i guess so!)

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. (I dont mind this being true haha)

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!! (subjective lol)

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl. (Ya ya TRUE MAN!)

11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that. (how true is it? LOL)

13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me

14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinkingsomething.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them

17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own.He's just too stubborn to admit it

19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!!Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them

20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life .

got this off Amanda's blog. made SO much sense.

hmm i guess they're true to some extent. i personally do such things -.- cant really believe when someone tells me that i do so. but hey. life is such. we're often blinded by the emotions which clouds our judgments at hand.

im a person like that. emotionally clouded! i have to control it man!

anyways was admitted to the hospital just now earlier in the evening. i was found fainted on the roadside -.- due to the excruciating pain. and when i awoke i was already in the ward. but doctors ran a x ray to see what happened, they said might have high possibility of hairline fractures zzz =.=

its one thing after the next T.T

its now or never, im not gonna let the stuff around me affect me any longer. or at least i'll try my best to do so yo.

hmm went to peck hoon's church - Heart of God Church on saturday after my session with the chinese physician.

freaking thumb... HEAL YO HEAL YO!

but yeah. i never thought i'd go to church. because of past incidents i was pretty afraid of churches especially when they'd start singing and all of a sudden start crying or screaming hysterically.

but i guess my image of a church would be rows of wooden chairs and a BIG cross in the front with stained glass. lol.

but yeah HOGC was kinda different, the ambience was more homely, and i seriously didnt expect it to be THAT big inside. apparently i was only in the auditorium LOL. guess it must be way bigger. haha.

you wouldnt believe me but i really enjoyed myself there. hmm.. i guess the part about the sermon was the part i liked most. it was really interesting and meaningful!

incubation -> invitation -> integration

i guess the preaching of the Word of God was meaningful and fruitful after all. at least i didnt go back lamenting that it was a waste of time.

although yeah i enjoyed myself but, i kinda freaked out TOTALLY when the other people started praying in tongues. i was kinda like - ...okay? what have i gotten myself into?'

pretty freaky if you ask me.

bahh. at least it made my day better although i still went running after that. haha!

and wendy neo went around telling people i would be coming. lol everyone came and like.. HI AARON!

and i didnt who they were - apart from some of them whom i met at peck hoon's birthday bbq. and that adriena kept disturbing me haha.

overall i enjoyed myself and i told my parents that i'd like to go back - just for the fun of it. they're super anti cos of past incidents but they do not mind and they told me - you can go, but dun come back home and start trying to brainwash or psycho us, we'll kill you if you do that.

lol which parents tell their child this kinda thing? but if they say it, they REALLY mean it! haha!

heck it anyway! LOL

sneaked out of the house for a midnight run.

i know my health isnt permitting me to do so. but i ran like mad towards harbourfront, cutting through queensway.

seeing the lights in the night. getting out of breathe.

i just wanna take my mind off everything but running away isn't a long term solution, but if could escape just for that moment, that blink of an eye moment, it would still be great.

ran about 1 over hour and i reached harbourfront, then i went to mount faber. i remembered the spot which provided a good view of the sky.

to gaze upon the stars was peaceful. i looked at the skies for like 3 hours? time passed so quickly even though all i did was gaze upon the skies.

took a bus back from harbourfront at around 6.45

felt better, but didnt quite overcome the feeling of frustration, lousy-ness which is still inside of me.

i never saw it coming, i should've started running a long long time ago..

listening to daughtry's 'over you' makes me think it through, it really is a meaningful song.

hope the winds would blow this mist covering me now away soon..

im going for my midnight run now.

i really needa relieve all these bottled-up emotions inside of me. i wanna run like a bull, releasing EVERYTHING.

i guess im taking the brunt of my insomnia now.

so many things happening at one same time. i feel that this is so uncalled for.

dislocation of my thumb, many many more. not being able to train hurts a whole lot more. how could anyone ever comprehend that?

classmates keep telling me that i needa be more positive about life, but honestly, where's the positivity and fairness in life?

i try to take things as they come, but good things are hard to find. and all i find are pain, sorrow and uncalled for emotions which were supposed to have been already buried deep within me, never awakening to the surface.

guess friends always know me as the noisy, loud and irritating boy. but do they know the reason why im always loud, noisy and irritating? no they don't. they just jump the gun and expect everything to be the way they stereotype it to be.

honestly speaking my friends, i do not want to let you guy downs, especially my dearest canoe team, my skcc buddies, and my new classmates.

but the fact is, the Aaron you guys know, is nothing more but a shell. all these things happening? i find them frustrating, and those who can see beyond the beyond of my background, i'm very sure you guys know i like things kept simple.

all this things, the source of trouble. i just wanna get away from it. bury it or something. i just dun wanna be taking the brunt of these things all the time. i wanna get stronger but not in this way! this is too much even for a guy like me who's a tanker.

P.S

i apologise to the group of W45M whom i went out with just earlier this evening. we were supposed to be happily eating, chatting and having fun. but i guess my freaking lousy attitude affected everyone else around me. i believe what Andrew said was spot on, i have the ability to affect others tremendously.

but that aside, im really sorry everyone that i was quiet throughout the whole day, suddenly bursting into flames while in class. i just wasnt myself today, and i personally believe that this is gonna continue. i dun want it to, but like i said, the Aaron you guys knew was nothing than a shell.

i dun wanna be this way, but for now, staying quiet is the only feasible way i feel which would work for me, why do i say so? i dun want others to be affected by me and carry the burden with me. i feel it is my responsibility to shoulder it myself. so just leave me alone alright?

P.S.P.S

thks the group for your concern.

thks peck hoon for the honey stick, it made me feel alot better, and you didnt have to say that kai jie bought it.

guess i knew i had it coming.

my thumb is a bad condition. got informed of the situation. im out of it. even though friends keep telling there's next year.

all that blood and sweat all for naught. who could ever comprehend that?

but the thing is, i have to get my thumb back in shape now. the pain from my thumb is already unbearable, but endure i must. the unbearable thing is being unable to go training, seeing all my teammates going thru the pain we swore to go through together.

im super sad now.

happy birthday dad! :DD

hope you liked the place i brought you and mum to for dinner.

it cost a BIG BIG bomb hole in my wallet T.T

210 bucks flew away... JUST like that.

fine dining indeed. 7 course meal lol. i wasnt even filled half way in my stomach. haha!

oh well. at least the dining ambience was good. the food and service - impeccable. what more could i ask for? :)

PEEEEEKTUREEEEEES! (PEEKTURES. LOL)

DOZO ._. means 'please' in japanese. seems more like 'money please fly away from my wallet' to me. LOL

























arent the poodles just simply adorable?! :DD they belong to my dad's friend who is a malay lol. he keeps cats, dogs, chinchillas, hamsters, fish and he has a jungle outside his HDB flat. HAHA!

lol. i apologise cos my hp's cam really sucks. but aiyah. make do with it. haha!

anyways. went ice skating with the 5B clique to celebrate Joanne's bday on tuesday. she's 18! OMG!

OLD HAG! LOL! :X

quite fun considering it being my first time. and yes lah. i dislocated my thumb. woohoo. =.=

i have to lay off canoe training for awhile to recover. i cant do much wtf. and pol-ite's approaching. FUCK!

zzz!