i was walking to the sports complex today after lab. lab was fun.

but little did i know that my day would have turned dull. walking out of the W6 canteen. i saw a horde of students doing warm ups. Canoe style.

i knew those were supposed to be my would-have-been juniors. suffering one year of hardships and shit were mentally and physicaly draining. nontheless fun.

i saw them. i saw tomi, yusri, nic, kelroy, marcus, jaffar, cath. i was so sad. i wanted to go back. i had the sudden urge to. i feel sad.

took my charger from angeline. and went to w55a. where i teared in front of azie and next, hana. i couldnt help it. im feeling so empty inside. where the flame once roared endlessly. i wanted to be a part of RPCanoe once again. the jersey's we've worked so hard for. the pain and the sweat.

im feeling very down. went to hana's class after that. and i decided to look out of the window to see the juniors slogging their guts out. it was heart wrenching to see my ex teammates yet not be able to join them. i wish i just didnt fail the attendance and attended more saturday trainings. after all coach kai yang holds the veto. what could i do?

im gonna hit the gyms starting tmr. on a regular basis. i dun wanna rot at home and be some useless shithead no more.


thks cherine! appreciate it. (: