hmm.. went to church on sunday. lol. fun lah. but we went to airport T3 after service. kinda fun though. haha. met up with yao zhong and went to send zhi hao off.

geez. sometimes i find life so difficult. full of setbacks and all due to misunderstandings. but i guess what bf said is really true, she gave me a good scolding last night lol. guess what she said - you just don't have the confidence to find out what's wrong.

sounded so right when she said that to me. i thought in my heart that things would change once i tried to voice myself out. but all i did was so superficial.

things arent changing for the better or is it? haha. perhaps i just gotta observe a lil more. bf was telling me to be more thick skinned in such situations. but i guess im really not confident to find out what's wrong?

kin shen said it too - people view me as someone outspoken, confident of everything and then kin shen added on - but when it comes to really doing it, you seem so afraid of it.

gosh im feeling it man. zzz.

things havent been going that well. but i guess i really gotta try.

yesterday i had one of the best news that ever happened to me. went to school for UT then left with grace and kin shen - had a long chat with grace and she chided me along the way too. lol.

headed to the hospital for my appointment with the specialist. wahh shit man - go up and down for x ray. press my hand non stop - freaking pain! but nvm i could endure. ended up the doctor said that my volar plates were fractured or something i dunno lah! LOL.

came up with an equation - DOCTORS' WORDS = DUN UNDERSTAND = BUT IF UNDERSTAND = CAN BECOME DOCTOR

LOL

anyways i'll make it happen man. I WANT MY LIFE TO BE BETTER!

CANOE TEAMMATES - I'LL BE JOINING TRAINING SOON, NO PADDLING BUT I CAN GO RUNNING, COS MY CAST IS OFF.

but definitely things have changed for the better. i know it. hahaha.

hmm hectic weekend up ahead - should i go church this sat? sunday is ivy's wedding, and i'd probably be there the whole day until like 12 am or 1 am? LOL. and at 4 am i have to be at the airport, i'll be flying off to china - hainan island. for a week, wah sian, whole holiday burnt! T.T

looking forward to everything though!

Aaron! Thrust Forth and Don't Look Back!