Checkmate

Moved on.

2011-03-16T07:43:00.000-07:00

Moved my posts to satanic-intuition.tumblr.com

This is simply fantastic.

2011-01-08T19:53:00.000-08:00

Ultimate flu with sore body. Now more flesh wounds along with a sprained right wrist and devil-knows-whats-fucking-wrong with my left knee. What's next? Another slipped disc?

This is simply fascinating. I don't know how did I acquire so many internal and external whatnots within a span of .. 4 days? lol.

Ubin was awesome!

2010-12-23T19:33:00.000-08:00

Yup it totally was. i wanna head back there again soon. this time with my own mountain bike to traverse the rough terrains. it's time singaporeans had a feel of the tough, the arduous, and the pain. HEHEHE.

The imitation of some half fucked Egyptian whatnot.

and so. the short getaway with my BGF ended after a day.

gotta start studying again. holidays are gonna be over and more tests are gonna commence as soon as school reopens. and then -

it's GRADUATION!

P.S: hooray! <:

P.S.S: it's xmas eve! happy xmas to y'all. even though i never ever once believed that the fat dude clad in red was ever real. lol. :/

2-0

2010-12-12T22:49:00.000-08:00

Okay. the time of year has come. I'm officially (not finally) 20. It's also another joyous occasion as it's my parents 23rd wedding anniversary too! hehe awesome right?

Can't say how touched i am this year. With my best girlfriend behind me, and with all my awesome friends too! Love y'all!

And lastly - I'm back with the Apple clan. Not sure how I got the iPhone 4 LOL but oh well! HAHA!

It's over!

2010-12-10T23:24:00.000-08:00

FYP is finally and officially over! Fuck yeaaaaaaaaa. I screamed at the top of my lungs just to let it out, and it fucking felt good heh.

Whatever it is, this is a major load off my shoulders. Now it's back to the classrooms and study study study - sounds fucking boring i know, but sure beats playing around with membranes and bacteria LOL.

It's time to relax now that the FYP chapter has come to a close. Gonna give clubbing a miss tonight. Sorry babes! :(

Oh oh! My parents suddenly said they're getting an iPhone 4 for me this coming April? And I just changed my iPhone 3G to a HTC Wildfire just not long ago LOL. What a shock.

Alright ciaos mudafuckas!

Hi

2010-11-21T23:19:00.001-08:00

HI PEOPLE. I'M FEELING LAZY TO BLOG. LOL.

All in one package

2010-10-19T05:19:00.001-07:00

(:

Need i say more? Heh (:

Lucky

2010-10-17T07:48:00.001-07:00

I'm really happy. No amount of words could quite describe this feeling.

This music video is rather self explanatory.

So! Enjoy! (:

Do you hear me? I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning 'round
You hold me right here, right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh, ooh

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Just another Glee version of Lucky. heh. fucking awesome.

Just the way you are.

2010-10-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

I meant every single word I've said (:

This post is dedicated to my wonderful bestfriend - Jinghui.

<3

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

This is it!

2010-10-14T07:23:00.000-07:00

School has commenced, once again, as much as I was looking forward to school. I'm totally appalled at my school's absurd holiday schedule.

Why in the world are our holidays ending earlier than other schools when our holidays started later than them? _|_
As if that wasn't enough? The newly revamped school rules were even more awesome! We no longer are allowed to wear bermudas(WTF?!) and slippers(I'm okay with this)

Come on! I agree that slippers make the whole look seem sloppy, for that I accept this rule, BUT WTF IS UP WITH THEM AND BERMUDAS?! It's just berms, fuck. That aside, quite a bunch of my poly mates have been protesting on my facebook wall. HAHA.

Honestly, just an opinion, but i think RP is a school where there is an infinite amount of encouragement for a rebellion. Its just a matter of time. :)

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Whatever seriously, it's my last semester, I need to clinch 'A's for ALL my modules. I was pretty disappointed to know I scored all 'B+'s for my previous semester, yes my GPA did increase, but fuckkkkk. Not what i worked toward for.

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There's this awesome song which i came across - Playing with fire.

Fucking awesome, I can't help myself playing with fire.

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Anyways, in the recent weeks I've been hit with a multitude of surprises - things which I never thought would happen (Y) though. HAHA! Enough about this, secrets always unravel themselves, no? (:

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Did a touch up for my UV tattoo:

I'm left with one more session! I think it'll turn out awesome. Heh! The scarification itself is already awesome enough.

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Lastly, it'll be almost my time to enter my rite of passage for a Singaporean son, around this time, next year - I would have been enlisted in the National Service.

My medical checkup has been booked on 1st December. I don't wanna declare my body full of injuries -.- but friends going through NS right now have told me, its my responsibility to inform them otherwise I might get charged for not doing so. LOL. WTF. Enough bullshit already, heh.

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Oh oh! and yes, I might be going overseas with my poly clique after we graduate. Tioman? Hong Kong? Bintan? Bang some kok?

HEHE! Something to look forward to!

Defying Gravity

2010-10-01T05:12:00.001-07:00

Glee has been awesome, especially since i've been sick for the past couple of days.

I've finished watching season 1 and well, i've also finished the first 2 episodes of season 2. I can't wait for the rest of season 2, I believe that's a feeling mutually shared to many throughout the world who watch Glee :)

Another one of the hits I'd say.

Oh oh!

Here's a song by John Mayer - not such a big fan, but this song hits home.

The lyrics are like dirty talk except, well, they're sung. lol.

For a smile, they can share the night.

2010-09-28T08:32:00.000-07:00

Started watching Glee since Jinghui has been bugging me to do so. And my honest opinions?

It rocks! *two thumbs up* all the drama and singing.

Especially this particular song:

fucking awesome.

Although Kristine says she does prefer metal, fret not, metal is still in my blood (:

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The following sentence is for anyone who bumped into obstacles like how i did before -
The moment somebody starts taking you for granted, leave.

No one deserves to be controlled by others. i speak from experience. as hard as it is, one must display the resolve to sever any ties one has had with that person previously.

Trust me, life is A LOT better once you're able to do that (:

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Holidays are almost nearing it's end. And it's gonna be rush this rush that once again. FYP is draining, but i've never believed in whining because nothing gets done. So don't complain okay? You're not the only who's doing FYP :)

Pentagram

2010-09-18T10:05:00.001-07:00

Exams are over!

2010-09-13T21:02:00.000-07:00

Well, this marks the end of Year 3 Semester 1 of my poly life. heh.

Final two papers held yesterday, the timings were pretty fucked up, but no matter (:

Headed down to Dover to meet up with JingHui and Hayley for a mini celebration over at Bugis. Excellent steamboat, great service, happy times.

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I can't really be bothered with you all, anymore. Know why? Cos i realised you people are just self conceited. Always thinking about yourselves, thinking you're always right. This group of friends that i've made, was fun - no doubt about it. Until the childish bitch came hogging you all, and this guy whom i was fine with, stepped all over my pride just to impress - fuck you all, if you'd think I was wrong to think that way. How'd you like it if i used you to impress some other girl? Get a life.

And here I thought that constantly rendering help for you was gonna make things better, I realised it was all nothing but a facade.

From now on I'm living for myself and JingHui, for she was the only girl who stood by me in times of need and understanding, and my childhood brothers. No more regrets. No more guilt. No more changing for the sake of pleasing. This life is mine to fuck up & love.

YAY

2010-09-11T09:10:00.001-07:00

Thanks JingHui for the advance bday gift! heh! New Picard moneyclip wallet. woots. damn right i'm fucking elated! :D

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I don't what is going on anymore. I need something to work with. Seriously.

Judgement

2010-09-10T03:27:00.001-07:00

When you read this, you'll know I'm definitely talking about you - This is for a specific person.

I need no acceptance, I've been misunderstood my whole life. What is clear to me is that I've been trying my hardest and utmost best to be acknowledged in whatever form or shape it may be. And I may be a dick, but at the very least, I've tried to validate my own existence. Have you?

Think about it.

"If you can't take me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best" - Marilyn Monroe

I've explained myself time and time again for naught. Just cause I have a temper doesn't mean I'll lash out for no reason now. I promised, that I would never lash out for no rhyme or reason every again, because I knew I'd be hurting you. Why did you even think that I got agitated? - This whole paragraph is for another person.

This twisted world, someday I'm gonna bend it to my will. I shall judge all the filth you, mankind, have created in your bid to save your own skins.

just love

2010-09-07T06:23:00.000-07:00

Sometimes the cards we are dealt are not always/never fair. This is something we all have to deal with. However we must keep smiling & moving on - In my case, I'm smiling AND moving on.

I honestly didn't know blocking someone from facebook = automatically deleting them from friend's list. so i thought you deleted me first. bahh no matter you'll probably say that i'm still lying anyways. so doesnt really matter.

i was almost convinced to sit down and talk. but after seeing those comments. haha. fat hope (:

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let's ignore the unnecessary shall we?

Anyways Lab Management and Wastewater Treatment modules are over and done with.

Lab was alright i guess - hopefully a B+ would be within grasp
Wastewater turned out awesome - B+ or A? haha!

Next monday sucks to the max. final 2 last papers. but one at 8.30AM and one at 4.30PM! WTFFFFF ZOMFGGGGG.

kay nvm. positive! haha!

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P.S - am i really that much of an open book that i'm told that i'm only stubborn with my mouth but i'm actually all mush on the inside. :/

WHO KNOWS?

BYEEEEEE!

on a lighter note i'm starting to like this song. even though i'm not such a fan of hers. haha!

The pot calling the kettle black

2010-09-06T08:04:00.001-07:00

look who's talking yaw. the pot calling the kettle black.

Say what you want about me. But the fact cannot be changed that you are, nothing but a selfish, egotist and possessive person (:

Magic words of my life?

Step off bitch. You're outta MY life, its gonna stay that way (:

you're outta my life, so stop trying to act like you dominated (:

one day the people around you are gonna hate you for this fact. mark my words. karma will come around bite you when you least expect it.

heh.

Morgan is so dope that you're no longer his bestfriend if fact, he's doubly glad that you're not even his friend anymore because you did nothing but caused trouble for him with your childish antics (:

it's the end of the line for you. so don't you even fucking dare call me childish when you're no better yourself.

you're to be blamed too.

2010-09-03T09:29:00.000-07:00

Changed for the better and see a better, brighter future ahead of you. i took the advice given by my friends and tried making amendments toward my attitude, but alas, the only thing i see from you is that you're being selfish, childish and ridiculous towards me.

Surely people would agree that in most cases, when problem arises, both parties are to be blamed. i don't like to do such things like pinpointing whose fault it is.
I like things to be kept simple when i know i am wrong, and you simply assume that i'm totally wrong. at times you ARE at fault too.

people around me have been asking why am i able keep such a person as my bestfriend? honestly i cant really answer them. Yes it was wrong of me in the past to lose my temper so easily, which is why i decided i need the change of my attitude. Many times now in the recent weeks i've curbed my temper towards you. you who took me for granted, you who think you can control my life, you who never want to lose your face in front of others, you with that fucked up ego of yours.

i've apologised to you, with regards to the recent issue, because i believe in treasuring the friendship more than my ego, but you feel you're plain right when you said i said it for the sake of saying it. sure by all means feel and say it that way.

a very good friend of mine has opened up my eyes to how i really feel towards this issue, she told me the following:

'After so much you can judge for yourself whether she's for keep but don't let anger overwhelm you. Have a thorough thought k :)'

and some have told me to let it go as a guy,

However, after much contemplating, i have realised that this so called friendship between us is over. it really is, how much we wanted each other in the past is all in the past. you fucked your chance now even after i fought back for our friendship.

i ain't gonna let my anger get the better of me this time round, if you haven't noticed i haven't lost my temper just yet as i've made the promise to everyone to change my attitude for the better as i don't want them to be affected when i lose my cool - and you can't take one small thing i've said towards someone else who isn't even part of us to begin with, then i'm really sorry, you don't deserve a bestfriend like me. and yes, this time i'm not going to apologise anymore, because like you said - the first thing we utter is what we really feel, and this is what i really feel at this point of time.

there's a reason as to why you're always winning your quarrels with others, it's because no one really bothers with your fucked up attitude and character anymore, it's not that you're immune to people, it's because everyone else is immune to you. so you think you've every right to do as you please. Someone should really put you in your place. and make you realise that you're just plain childish and trying to control me.

One day you will realise how much I was there for you, when i'm gone, well now i am. i dont need you in my life, and i think my life would be much more blissful and peaceful without your presence.

friends, strangers whatever - teammates are all we'll ever be now. when i'm done with my poly life, you're officially out of my life - for as long i will live (nothing is forever thats why i wont say forever). i'll erase your very existence from my database, for you do not deserve me nor do you deserve a placement within my wonderful poly memories.

goodbye. and be well. it was nice knowing you - i guess.

P.S.

To all related parties who are reading this, i've said my piece and whether or not you believe me is entirely up to you. whether you decide to believe her is also up to you. j

Just know that i'm saying this now because i'm not only prepared to lose this friend, i'm prepared mentally to lose everyone related as well. not forcing you people to take sides, but see for yourself whether i've been treated fairly.

feel it.

2010-08-25T09:25:00.000-07:00

You whom time forsook; you, who have forgotten the feeling of love, you shall die along with your dream.

and not forgetting that,

Lying tears hurt others; lying smiles hurt oneself.

NONO! this is a random thought process. LOL

FYP 2

2010-08-25T08:17:00.000-07:00

FYP 2 has commenced, along with prep for my year end exams. walaoxz

i feel damn lazy, how i wish YOG was after my last exams. sucks, thanks to this everything has been pushed back :/

bestie is going for cruise on friday. take care hor! :D

and i actually mixed up the dates for my yakult trip, i thought it was this friday 27th, turns out it's actually on 27th SEPT. LOL. fuck yeah.

my best buddy from since we were P4 is entering the NS tmr. Bertrand Tan do take care yeah? (:

I'll be heading down to Home Club to help Aggy this saturday for her flea market. think it'll be fun :D

okay today has been one of the most boring days of the week. HAHA. and i practically did nothing. stoned. but i did go running. burn fatttttt.

peace out!

poetic side of me? HAHA

2010-08-20T08:36:00.001-07:00

Inspiration from weather and people around me :)

Winds blow outside, fierce and chill -> (yes i know not very fierce nor very chilling lol)

I hear the wolves howl from the hill -> (nope no wolves in singapore i know)

Raven soar through the midnight sky

But i am warm with friends close by

Dedicated to my beloved friends.

reflect

2010-08-18T08:59:00.000-07:00

i guess not being so hard headed for once is not so bad after all.

-reflects-

i need more time to sort my thinking and myself out.

broke.

2010-08-17T10:24:00.000-07:00

just finished the birthday week of leeling. hope you had fun for your 20th babe.

and of course not forgetting chee guan as well.

cheerios to you guys (:

its the YOG holidays day 3, and i'm officially broke?

account frozen due to some matters. life going downhill. so what's next? a pole shoved up my a-hole? fuck.

it's time to put life back in its place. never really intended to bring anyone up so high only to shatter their happiness? i mean it's just plain stupid for anyone to try that, but wrong words = wrong vibe.

it's just how amazing text can be. you're not saying it out and ends up all your thoughts thru the texts gets screwed and the other party ends up getting the wrong message.

i just wished there was some way of talking to you, but without me saying the wrong things(again) only to spoil every damn thing again - so fucked i know.

i'll do whatever i can to salvage - only i can help myself.

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back to me being broke. zzz. cake learning and ingredients = exp. ahhh powerhouse and today made me even more broke.

guess i'll have to work more intensively and study for my end of semester exams as well. sigh.

2 jobs:
1. tuition teacher
2. cleaner

i know the latter is pretty shocking, been there, done that. so chill on being shocked please. lol.

How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking
Every breath with you oohhhh
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me, is against the odds
And that's what I've got to faceeeee

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So Take a look at me now
Cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is
All I can do
And that's what I've got to face.
Take a good look at me now
'Cause l'll still be standing (standing here)
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take
(chance I got to take, got to takeeee)

Yeahhhhh
Take A look at me now
(Take A Look at me nowwwww)

good song.

very meaningful lyrics. i hope you're reading this. cos some parts are what i really want to say to you.

:(

2010-08-08T05:42:00.000-07:00

BBQ at leeling's yesterday.

not bad but not good either i guess.

hello from a long while.

2010-07-25T19:09:00.000-07:00

haven't had any feel to blog, neither did i have the time to do so.

quite angsty lately. felt that i've been thinking way way too much.

okay i really dunno what i should do with my blog now. haha! might close it soon (:

cheerios!

YAHOOO!

2010-05-28T23:14:00.001-07:00

SCHOOL'S OUT! and it's time to partayeee!

(: (:

heading to Powerhouse tonight. fuck yeah!

i hope tonight's gonna be fucking wild. like it always is. HAHA.

and and genting is just 1 and 1/2 days away! (: (:

SEXCITED SEXCITED \m/

GENTING!

2010-05-12T04:59:00.000-07:00

okay. i know i know. before anything else occurs. LOL.

yes my dear bestie Jing Hui - IM UPDATING NOW FOR GOD'S SAKE. NAG.

and you too agnes low. thank you for your muffins.

alright, guess i can see the cobwebs multiplying all over the webpage. haha. proteomics and lab management exams coming up and then....?

ITS GENTING! WOOHOO!
would be going there with my proteomics class clique! (: we just had steamboat on monday *YUM*

final year project was terminated. oh that was fucked. sigh. due to our algae experiments breeding mosquitoes in the nutrient rich wastewaster @_@

okay nvm that. let's all focus on the task at hand - exams (: it's my last year in poly. i wanna make sure i do well and fuck off into NS life *two thumbs up*

credits to Agnes (: man i love this picture. LOL

just for laughs people. LOL (: or rather should i say - S.H.I.T.T.Y (:

rahhh

2010-04-18T00:55:00.001-07:00

nothing good comes out of clubbing. trust me on that (:

whatever that is.

i couldn't get a cab after club last night for some odd reason, so i decided to walk up to Mount Faber and chill out on my own.

freaking. LOL.

okay never mind that. i liked the peace and quiet surroundings - sure felt damn good.

enough of that bullcrap.

"Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul."

one more quote (:

"Of all the offspring of Time, Error is the most ancient, and is so old and familiar an acquaintance, that Truth, when discovered, comes upon most of us like an intruder, and meets the intruder's welcome."

man. this kinda bullcrap sure makes sense uh.

forget it (:

2010-04-05T08:25:00.000-07:00

slip of a tongue - GG ttm.

what to do haha. live with it.

anyways. punchline!

to fear being trapped in the mud and hesitate is the choice of fools.

bear that in mind Aaron (:

yes i know. i don't like Justin Bieber. but well. the cover is much nicer. lol.

choice, work, chance.

2010-04-03T22:16:00.000-07:00

headed down to powerhouse 4/4/10. lols.

had fun. not gonna say what happened. i'm too tired to do so.

used all my connections available. but couldnt get the last 2 of my friends in. zzz. eff-ed up.

on a side note. i think i might spilled some nonsense by the slip of my tongue. i'm not usually like this. haha. but i guess. what's done is done!

and i'm not the kind to keep wallowing in grief, i don't want to affect the people around me especially. their smiles are the ingredient which keeps me going (:

whatever it is.

here's a song by sonic syndicate.. again. LOL.

titled - Enclave

i think this song is able to convey clear messages and thoughts. in my opinion of course.

the lyrics are seriously mind blasting ( i cant think of more words now :/ sorry )

We are uninvited guests
In this melancholy world
And soon you learn
That the only thing worth to treasure,
Are the people that actually care
Then why are there still tears in your eyes?

So I'm trying to teach you something
But you turn away
So I'm trying to show you the path
But you'll walk astray
I would cross the seven seas
Just to get to you
I would't sleep a thousand nights
To give what belongs to you

The token of all I was
I traded for my escape
To see a new horizon
And my burden finally rests now
In the depths of its water grave
But the waves of the river will always remember

Forever isn't long enough
In the company of you
Forever
My heart will always beat your name

So I'm trying to teach you something
But you turn away
So I'm trying to show you the path
But you'll walk astray
I would cross the seven seas
Just to get to you
I would't sleep a thousand nights
To give what belongs to you

So I'm trying to teach you something
But you turn away
So I'm trying to show you the path
But you'll walk astray
I would cross the seven seas
Just to get to you
I would't sleep a thousand nights
To give what belongs to you

no one falls in love by choice, it is by chance. no one stays in love by chance, it is by work and effort. and no one falls out of love by chance, it is by choice.

no. i'm not emo. just being a little down to earth for the time being.

procrastination

2010-03-31T07:47:00.000-07:00

talk talk talk procrastinate procrastinate procrastinate.

is that all you EVER do?

when the fuck are you ever gonna be more disciplined?

look here. remember this. burn it deep in veins of your brain.

Without pain from bleeding, without sacrifice from everything else, you get nothing at all.

curse of the virgin canvas

2010-03-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

another great song!

(I am here to tell you a story.
A story that will torture your thoughts by day and poison your dreams by night.
And though I will do my best, there are no words
that can be written nor brush strokes laid on canvas
that can describe the stark and utter horror of the night that Annabel died.
The emptiness will haunt you.)

This is a nightmare, is my Annabel really gone?
My eyes are stung by daylight, I find it hard to breathe.
Her body teases me as the sun reveals the dawn.
The smell of blood still crawls, I kiss you softly goodbye.

Baby, lay in my arms and cuddle me close.
Soon this will be just an awful memory...
Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

I watch the blood drip from the corners of your mouth.
Your icy flesh is lying, your pallid skin still glows.
I'm starting to believe what my eyes are seeing now.
You're still so beautiful and yet so morbidly still.

Baby, lay in my arms and cuddle me close.
Soon this will be just an awful memory...
Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

Sweet revenge... He will pay, he will pay my dear.
Empty eyes accuse a face so evil, I'm coming undone.
The mirror says it all, a crimson story of innocence lost.
Empty eyes accuse a face so evil, I'm coming undone.
What have I done to her?

So terribly memory returns of her struggle, of her screams, of her.
Lord forgive me!
My stomach heaves as I see the blood that covers me.
Blood that was once hers.
I'm a monster!

... Such an awful memory... Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

Sweet revenge... He will pay, he will pay my dear.

(A mirror never lies.
They know.
Everybody knows.
Do you not see what they see?
A mirror never lies.
I see what they see. Everybody knows. Everybody knows.)

cool shit. man.

MONDAY BLUES LAAAAA. TUESDAY BLACKS LAAAAA. WEDNESDAY BLUE BLACKS LAAAA.

SIANNNN.

happy birthday!

2010-03-28T04:05:00.000-07:00

best wishes to my bff - charmaine and my dear gabriel lee.

headed to meritius mandarin for the international buffet for charmaine's celebration. woah stuffed full.

and stayed over at gabriel's chalet and we got so siao with whatever we did - okay correction - got so siao with whatever ME did. LOL

smirnoff vodka + ruby red absolut + gin = ?

(:

happiness thats what. haha!

okay. i just started the twitter thingamajig. i mean. i TOTALLY dunno wtf is going on LOL.

anyways. do add me up if you have twitter?

death_aaron

and yes. how to train your dragon is an absolute MUST watch!

out of the blue

2010-03-26T18:40:00.000-07:00

a music video describing a very accurate feeling i am having at this very moment.

When something's pure

How can people just say
We're not meant to be
And when something's true
How can people just
Keep me away from you

Suddenly I'm all alone
Pushed away for nothing wrong
Don't you have the guts to say
How you feel about me

Out of the blue
They said we couldn't be together
I have to get over you
We've been given no choice
We have no voice
Out of the blue

Can't even call
On the telephone
Don't even know
If you're at home
But to control
Just how we feel
Between you and I
Not for one to steal

Suddenly I'm all alone
Pushed away for nothing wrong
Don't you have the guts to say
How you feel about

Out of the blue
They said we couldn't be together
I have to get over you
We've given no choice
We have no voice

Just wanna hear what you've gotta say
Are you feeling the same
'Cos I'm not ok
Thought when we met
There was something more
But the others said no
They shut the door

Out of the blue
They said we couldn't be together
I have to get over you
Been given no choice
We have no voice

Out of the blue
We knew we shouldn't be together
Don't wanna get over you
Love makes a choice
It has no voice
Out of the blue

Alesana

2010-03-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

another band i'm loving - Alesana.

and this song?

wow much? anti christ lyrics once again <3

enjoy!

Look at you, you miserable fool!
Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears
God's turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut
And now you're knocking on the devil's door!

hell yea!

FUCK YEA!

2010-03-23T07:54:00.001-07:00

yes!

chemistry - A
molecular cell biology - A
environmental sciences - B
immunology - B

what more could i ask for?

happy right now. but i need more 'A's to pull my gpa up :D

yippeee!

2010-03-21T06:40:00.000-07:00

on a high note - my attachment is ending! YAYNESS! counting down 13 days to go! all that shit. working under the scorching and blazing sun, under the unpredictable rain which comes and goes like the winds, and... the occasional dog shit stepping i have witnessed other ppl do are simply hilarious. like what they all say. KARMA - comes around and sticks a knife in your asshole, no, LITERALLY.

i laugh and the next thing i know? *piak* DOGGY POOOO. wah but i was lucky only to have stepped a LITTLE bit of it. my colleague stepped on a lucky pile FULL throttle. HAHAHAHA.

so what's next actually?

alright i have my bff's bday makan out this weekend coupled with gabriel's 21st(the one from the church i used to go) and... MAYBE- JUST maybe i might be heading to supper club to party the night out. LOL

sheesh i dunno. i hate crowds man.

oh yes yes. my 'ah' family's outing would hopefully be a visit to Universal Studios!

i need the god dammit adrenaline rush in me. too docile for far too long.

i'm really looking forward to Battlestar galatica and Jurassic Park! okay i know thats lame. but hey i really do love dinosaurs, ever since i was young i was just fascinated with the dinosaurs and yes the opportunity came last year's march where i went to Melbourne on exchange and got the chance to excavate real fossils! :DD excited much? haha.

okay. enough said.

last piece of shit i'm gonna leave here.

a music video - Lamb Of God - Laid to Rest

watch it and see if you get the same interpretations as i do (:

the song's about man losing time and life, trying to run from living, trying to hide from himself, and in his duality - to catch himself and thus save himself at the same time - to open eyes to actually living and not running away. When one catches another it means that a man managed to get a grip of himself and opened himself to life.

Cheers.

set to fail

2010-03-09T05:51:00.001-08:00

lamb of god *thumbs up*

metal my sanctuary of peace - despite the loud banging. wahaha.

You want to blame me for the way you hate yourself
You think you can find who you are in someone else
Criticize who already found their positioning
You've got a long way to go

So go and weave your tale of woe convincing yourself it's all
You're so set to fail
Somewhere you finally lost your way
Only yourself left to betray

A needless hippie repairing your despair
You take great measure to appear like you don't care
The decision and persuasion must deceit thee properly
You lost it before you began

So go and weave your tale of woe convincing yourself it's all
You're so set to fail
Somewhere you finally lost your way
Only yourself left to betray
Only yourself left to betray

So go and weave your tale of woe convincing yourself it's all
You're so set to fail
Somewhere you finally lost your way
Only yourself left to betray
Somewhere you finally lost your way
Only yourself left to betray

the lyrics also damn zai. woohoo.

i especially like - So go and weave your tale of woe convincing yourself it's all. You're so set to fail.

damn nice. anyway his vocals are zai to the core. time to turn in. nights all! (:

oh yeah btw. i'm halfway through my attachment. living life like a bangalah. dislocated my shoulder slightly while carrying the heavy stuffs. whoops. haha. anyway. time to press on Aaron! (:

chao cries

2010-03-06T07:06:00.000-08:00

Blasphemy in your eyes, spare me your pathetic lies
Sympathy I despise, just give me your chaos cries
One night he came to me and spoke the words of heresy
One day I will prevail, in other words your last day

You and I are living a lie
Sick of always denying
The omen will come true
And there’s nothing you can do...

MY EYES WERE ABLAZE, WHEN EXPOSED TO YOUR LAST PRAYERS
MY MIND FILLED WITH HATE, SLITHERING TOWARDS YOUR GATE
I´M THE SERPENT THAT COILS AROUND YOUR NECK
ARMED WITH THE VENOM TO RAVAGE YOUR FRAGILE MIND

Antichrist will arise, and ignite your precious sky
Anarchy your demise, it was all never-ending lies
One boy we all will blame for what he at last became
This boy a forbidden key to our own extinction

anti christ song i suppose? getting more into it. but i'm loving it.

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busy week ahead. fyp meeting soon. tsk. can't believe the shitty situation i'm always stuck in.
just read her blog. then i saw her mentioning the removal of her emo post? then i pondered to myself - how come she was able to move on so easily and i wasn't? there i was hoping at some point we could gotten back together. zzz. okay whatever. erase that bullcrap.

and the thing was, wow to myself i got jealous LOL. when we were together, she didnt mention me ONCE on her blog. and now she's happily blabbering the guy's name. zzz.

can someone please tell me CBB means? (no vulgar interpretations PLEASE)

pissed off with everything and everyone now.

the only current remedy. _|_ Y.O.U

mental discipline

2010-02-27T18:30:00.000-08:00

started working at Ultra Flo right after CNY.

and 2 weeks have passed. these 2 weeks have been really demanding by my supervisors I/C of me.

mentally and physically.

i can't stand seeing other people enjoying their life in the attachments, sleeping and all. when i'm slogging my guts out - carry the membranes filters here and there, running all over, getting downright sweaty and dirty - i like it actually all these manual work.

the flushing and quality tests conducted for the membranes, however, were pretty much the killers - had multiple cuts all over my fingers, palm and arms. lol (Y)

mud water from construction sites, shit water from wastewater treatment plants, you name it. i TOUCHED it (:

but who am i to comment? this world is indeed unfair. nothing much i can do. except grit my teeth and finish it.

my partner for attachment decided to give up on the first day of work. lol. led me to think how useless this person was.

i worked in the construction site before, carrying the heavy stuff under the hot sun. but oh well. i can't expect much from someone who is a female, but then again, i don't think she should have gave up right away, especially since there could have been someone else who would have liked her current seat in Ultra Flo more.

and Sunday is my only rest day, where the rest of my friends are happily sleeping at home ):

-sigh-

okay whatever, i'm gonna laze around at home today. LOL.

and and! i just cut mallard (i'm not exactly sure if this is the right spelling but the pronunciation is right) hairstyle. LOL

i look like some run-in-the-mill half past six ah bengster. HAHAHAHA

=.=

2010-02-12T08:28:00.000-08:00

zzz.

Oh dearest cupid!

we need to talk about your aiming. like NOW.

and shitty thing is:

REALITY HURTS.

=.=

FACTS HURT LIKE HELL TOO. LIKE A FREAKING THOUSAND NEEDLES TO YOUR HEART OR OUR ASS MAYBE.

:/

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2 down and 2 to go!

2010-02-10T00:09:00.000-08:00

environmental science UT was quite alright. i think.

nonetheless i was quite tensed as matthew said he had set a question with calculations. ended up he gave us a feint. LOL.

bloody biogas question was set by him. haha.

okay.

i finished the bouquet like 2 days ago. was still pondering how come it looked so weird. LOL.

hope you like it! (:

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fyp meeting today. planning stage only and i released. omgg. so much things to do and so little time.

time is really of the essence in our context. fyp + attachment = GG-fied.

no matter. i'll make it work. (:

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CNY is this saturday :/

clashes with valentine's, somehow i find this year to be super rushy. hmm. year 3 soon. can't complain. JUST DO IT.

like pull ups. LOL.

oh did i mention that the blisters on my hands bled out from doing the bouquet and doing too many pull ups? HAHAHA.

(:

take care!

hell yeah!

2010-02-06T18:57:00.000-08:00

i think i am seriously over the moon now! LOL

FYP allocation results were released last friday. and guess what?

we were elated to receive the FYP project of our choice! :D

Wastewater Treatment at Song Be Golf Resort Vietnam

whooopie!

the thing is, charmaine decided to pull a prank on me as i was still in school revising immunology at like 9 plus? she called me to tell me we got the Biogas project instead. basket.

HAHA.

and this project would be conducted in vietnam in Sem 2 of year 3! (Y)

for now i think we need to have the basis of water research and wastewater treatment. so now for sem 1 of year 3, fyp fyp fyp fyp all the way i suppose.

sheesh. heard the year 3 core modules i'm supposed to take are like extremely difficult? :/

wastewater treatment
membrane technologies
proteomics
lab management - this module is bullshit one LOL

the first two are supposedly to be more difficult.

and i'm kinda worried lol. according to my diploma head, membrane tech is a multi disciplinary module - which involves, chemistry(no sweat), physics(OMG -.-) and process engineering(pls google and tell me what it means LOL)

oh well. time to step up to the challenge!

who the hell do you think i am?!

*wriggle eyebrows*

anyway, last day of school has concluded. sheesh. not a very good feeling, especially when you know that your year 3 classmates are graduating.

my dearly loved environmental science class :(

vivian even came back for the photo-taking despite her condition. aww.

ahh whatever, i just now i'm gonna miss them to bits. zzz.

and the stupid kah kian put this one his fb status - time to close the chapter on RP.

wah i see already i damn sad. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

okay GUYS that are graduating, we've GOT to meet up okay! :DD keep in contact. (:

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UT3s have commenced.

immunology was yesterday, wasn't as difficult as i pictured it to be. hopefully i can clinch a B+ or an A (:

1 down 3 to go

next would be environmental science (wed), followed by molecular cell biology (thur) and lastly chemistry (friday)

shitty thing is, chemistry exam is at 4.30 pm. wthhhhh.

alright. i'm heading to the hospital now. doctor is re-looking at my condition for my back.

a side note:

to know you means to know you like no one else has ever known before, not to know you and turn my back against you (:

Moral of the story?

2010-01-31T18:53:00.000-08:00

LOL. seriously wtf.

i like the last sentence, maybe i'd have to do that during my attachment LOLOLOL.

and the moral of the story?

Don't work too hard. Nobody notices anyway.

HAHA. but i do feel bad for the worker. :/

HOOKED HOOKED HOOKED!

2010-01-31T07:29:00.000-08:00

okay i know there's this video in my music section.

BUT i just had to post it up!

this one too!

POWERSHIFT

AHHHH! hooked.

(Y)

i swear the female bassist is DAMN hot.

karin axelsson. HOT HOT HOT.

although emo emo la. BUT HOT HOT HOT. hahah! she looked even hotter with her long and blonde hair. HOT HOT HOT HOT. now also not bad. either way HOT!

anyway. just came back from vivian's 21st. she's looking lots better since that day after her op at the hospital.

great food. more pics coming. wahaha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN! (:

sonic syndicate

2010-01-28T05:34:00.000-08:00

is it just me or..?

but i think i'm becoming more attuned to metal songs. oh gosh. i still remembered friends in the past telling me that screamo, metal songs were nice. LOL. but i stuck to my resolve that oldies were evergreen such air supply, bee gees and the eagles.

oh gawd. but somehow. LOL. i'm actually liking these metal songs which i used to find so annoying. haha.

avenged sevenfold and sonic syndicate. *two thumbs up!*

aite whatever man. from today onwards, i shall try to limit my crude words. jesslyn gave me a very positive compliment. wahahaha. happy like hell LOL

and and. i just realised that CNY and valentine's are falling on the same day.

woah. lets just stick to the phrase - let nature take its course (:

and i guess its time i made more plans for myself. CNY which means i'll have to see my paternal grandmother AGAIN. -sigh-

she's afterall my grandmother, all her ill doings toward me in the past, i really can't seem to bear a grudge. as much as i dislike her :/

can't wait for my fyp to commence. honestly speaking, and and! the most important thing! NS. before i know it. year 3 will fly by like the invisible winds - won't be able to see it, but well, our sense of touch knows it best (:

i just better work doubly hard if i want gain admission into a university. tsk.

a job which gives the status of -

FINANCIALLY STABLE

is of utmost importance. (:

alright. im tired. time to turn in. nights! (:

CNY!

2010-01-26T06:30:00.000-08:00

chinese new year is around the corner! woohoo!

just got my new year clothes today, from topman -.-

wad the fuck. 150 bucks LOL.

hais stupid label stuffs _|_

anyway my attachment is gonna commence on 17th feb. NO HOLIDAYS LORRRRRR. T.T

fyp fyp fyp fyp. wah damn busy sia. need more slp :S

uncle jerry's wedding is this saturday. formal wear again -.- fucking sian. i dun like sia. zzz.

and i hope vivian is doing okay, she had her operation today. and her 21st party is like on sunday? dunno if it'll be cancelled. i just hope she's alright :/

hais.

alright time to slp. UT3 ftw!

2010-01-25T05:56:00.001-08:00

honestly,

i really can't be bothered.

LOL. its annoyingly irritating.

so yeah.

you stay to yourself, and i'll stick to mine. no interferences whatsoever. i just can't be bothered with bullcrap these days.

2010-01-25T03:56:00.000-08:00

you want bullshit, come straight to me. need not tag it on my chatbox (:

and the thing is. faggots need not necessarily mean bisexuals or gays. i sure hope some gay sticks his pole up your ass, i'd laughing like hell (:

be glad i even bothered to entertain you with this post. normally i wouldnt even be bothered. first and last post to be bothering with the likes of you (:

anyways. trouble or no trouble. you know it best when you gave me the smug look the other day. dun need to say that im hiding between my screen typing all these bullcrap. you dare you come. no action = no talk. simple.

(: i come in peace too. go ask your gf why she approached me first for advice before you come and talk to me. (:

troubles looms

2010-01-24T09:25:00.000-08:00

havent been able to sleep well recently. after the chains of events which have transpired. thinking about it made think deeply about it.

and resulted in me being unable to sleep.

grrr.

headache. really i am.

the break up, the recovery, wasnt easy. now i'm trying to remain cheerful. but there's just something missing in me.

short post.

alcohol straight in a row for three days haven't helped either. pretty intense if you ask me. lol. gg-fied.

all the bullshit bullcrap. -sigh-

UT3 is coming up. lets do our best people. year 3 is just another semestral break away.

FYP ftw.

boom boom shake shake

2010-01-09T18:54:00.000-08:00

yay. after a long time. i've decide to update my rusty, spider webbed fill blog. LOL

well im back from japan and taiwan. helping in the meetings in japan was rather fulfilling i would say. but ah. taiwan (Y) walk every 5 mins my wallet would find money missing.

so much food. omg. i lost 3 kgs in japan. but put on 6kgs in taiwan. fucking steady haha!

and yes. came back to singapore missing all my loved ones.

which includes charmaine(I PUT YOUR NAME FIRST HOR THIS TIME LOL), vivian, kat, jesslyn, jing hui and many many more...

and RON I LOVE YOU LOL. since you said the last time you didnt see your name. i wanna gay fuck your ass okay? steady (Y) omg i cant believe i just said that LOL

and happy birthday to my dearest jing hui! (: you're 18th now! :D presents, surprises everything i did my best to make your 18th a memorable one. haha. hope you enjoyed it despite all your mindfucking assignments/projects in school.

and and! a picture. damn sweet!

our post christmas meet up! :D had lunch over at citylink's thai express. (Y)

UT1 grades are out.

Immunology - A
Molecular Cell Biology - B
Chemistry - B
Environmental Science - D+

wah piang ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh

THE FUCKING D+ DAMN EYESORE. ZZZZ

dulan. ARGH. nvm UT2 over already anyway. very much doable. so aiyah. UT3 LAI.

okay. im out. i damn sian. shit shouldnt have said anything about my grades. i feel so GG-fied. lol

CIAOS!

its been awhile uh?

2009-12-20T17:41:00.000-08:00

been quite a while since i last blogged. haha.

well hectic week.

clubbing at zouk which turned out to be pretty fun YET disastrous at the same time. got my ego hurt pretty badly for the first time. which made me quite pissed off.

oh well. as quoted by LIM LI HAN - bros befores hoes, sis before bros.

what a bitch to write like that hor? HAHAH :P

anyways!

W55P BBQ was great! i got 2 kg of mutton from giant at only 20 cents. and im fucking serious. they priced 2 cents per gram - do your math (:

took the meat, quickly bolted. HAHA

hope everyone had a fun time, eating, talking nonsense, cam whoring - you know who you are girls (: HEEHEE

okay just some pictures before im off to meet my bestie for breakfast. that cock woke up late! RAWR!
let me introduce. LOL. charmaine ng. my newfound seriously trusted friend. although we always quarrel. well its for laughs. HAHA. here's to our newfound friendship (:

and thanks to so much for the both the birthday and Christmas gifts, i really do love them lots (: hope you liked mine too yeah? :D

P.S. i just love this picture taken by Kat. it totally captures every bit of your unglam-ness HAHAHA
Kat! (: thks for being the camera girl! :D:D
you see! AGAIN! basketball!
alright group photo! HAHA. see y'all after i return from japan! (:

oh did i mention i was flying off to japan on the 22nd? this coming tuesday?

take care y'all (:

YAY :D

2009-12-12T18:11:00.000-08:00

like finally its my nineteenth bday!

HAHA.

first all, thanks to those wished me at the stroke of midnight.

xiao xuan, amni, and dianna

and 6 mins late to wish me was my bestie. LOL

anyway a big thank you to all those who wished me too!

nvm i shall do a tribute here. dun say im heartless. tsk.

nigel kan chiong spider. LOL
i swear the following conversation is seriously wtf with my bunch of childhood friends LOL

HAHAHA. the retarded guy - jasper LOL

OMG my niece, Eleanor just called me to wish me Happy Birthday! :D she's like 4 years old? LOL

and yes not forgetting all the wonderful people who wished me via text! (:

Joanne, Ganesan, Bertrand, Charmaine and ....!

(dun be disappointed if you dun see your name here. LOL. im sure its within the .... ) HAHAHA

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had a day out with my bestie anyway. went to walk around, talk cock, take pictures and we visited NYNY (:

food (Y)

whooopie!

wa damn long post. LOL. anyways thanks again for everything Jing Hui! (:

ciao oh sai muda fcuker!

marathon

2009-12-06T06:27:00.000-08:00

atmosphere for marathon was electrifying!

and seriously i have to take my hat off to the kenyans, the top 3 finished 42km in 2hours 11mins. OMGGGGG.

even women didnt take that long. was around 3 hours? russians in fact. (Y) my god.

anyway. im shagged. knees, ankles swollen. NICEEEEE.

wahaha.

time to sleep. good night all.

(:

boomz!

2009-12-02T21:43:00.000-08:00

all right man. good news to start off this post. i know i havent been updating much, damn no motivation to pen down my thoughts.

first off. PP presentation went relatively well. *wriggle eyebrows*

first assessor - good work with the presentation portion. liked the way you presented. very lively and uplifting.

2nd assessor - good productivity demonstrated coupled with excellent replies when asked questions.

holy shit seems like great comments uh? scarly fail PP assessment (Y) LOL

anyways its been a tiring week. holidays anybody? *two thumbs up* 15th DEC! counting down yaws.

:D

alright. 13th december is finally approaching? like freaking YESSSAHHH.

but ah i seriously do not look forward to my birthday. okay i know everyone is supposed to be happy about it. presents and all. aiyo. i find it so annoying. lol. not because im getting older and hitting the 2x age soon. just that its kinda troublesome?

:/

lol. okay whatever anyway. im pretty sian now. i need some excitement in my lifezxzxz. seriously.

for some eff-ed up reason i was like super high when i was with my poly clique -my 'ah' family. HAHA. i dunno why either. i was talking super loud. and i was doing stupid things throughout the whole time when we were at sunshine plaza and bugis. gosh -.-

image image. must maintain. LOLOL.

sunday - marathon time. gogo. :DD needa take more sugar and carbo load up. my low blood sugar condition is giving me problems -.- eff it.

tsk. its thursday! (: tmr is the end of the week! :DD

but immunology test is on the 8TH! wtfffff! MY FREE DAY CLASH AGAIN WITH MY TEST.

_|_ =.= _|_

ugh.. UGH.. UGH!!! ZZZ
LOL. stupid nerdy specs. HAHAAA

What are some of the values and beliefs you hold strongly to? Please provide examples of how you have demonstrated these in your actions.

2009-11-24T12:00:00.000-08:00

The values that I believe in play a very important role in my life. These important values have been greatly influenced by my family. My values include freedom and the most important value above all, virtue. The belief’s I have are important because they shape the way I live my life in a way that I think is desirable to me and those around me. I believe that to value something is to assign love and importance to it, because it is probably something we hold dearly to.

I have had the fortune of being raised in a strong family background. I have two loving parents that have always supported me and taught me life's lessons while also letting me develop my own morals and values by their example. Their love for me has shown me great examples of how to be kind and loving toward others. My family has also placed me in a great environment, surrounded by people who care and are very loving. However, I would wish to elaborate further on ‘virtues’ which I’ve mentioned in the earlier paragraphs.

To simplify things, virtue basically means having the quality of doing what is right and avoiding what is wrong. Yet teenagers such as myself would often knowingly step into the quarters of mistakes and probably end up facing undesirable consequences. But I think we all agree that with making mistakes, people learn much more, because the experience is somewhat akin to the phrase – pain makes the body master of the mind. When there’s something wrong, we tend to pay more attention to it and learn from it so as not to commit again.

Through all the mistakes we learn, however, the value ‘virtue’ which I hold strongly to makes me and many others contradict ourselves because I feel that when an individual pursues virtue consciously, that individual is in actual fact, not virtuous at all. Reason being that we were granted freedom, which we gladly exploited because we felt it was more of a ‘need’ than a ‘want’. And finally we end up trying to good stuffs to make up for the ill things which we’ve done. I believe that is a yes for all, if not most people?

And when that happens, we’re causing trouble like toppling dominoes, more lies to cover up our mistakes, which leads to more lying, the ultimate snowball effect. Which is precisely I feel that the only way to demonstrate that I’m true to my values is to be myself, and just basically think of the consequences before acting. Nothing more nothing less, too much thinking and being self conscious of our values which are etched in us would probably make us go mad before we even reach adulthood.

essay which i helped Vivian to write. LOL. too long alr nv squeeze my brain juices HAHA.

EUREKA!

2009-11-22T05:10:00.000-08:00

okay biggest joke EVER in the history of mankind.

first off, lets start with my laptop.

i've been using my laptop for 1 and 1/2 years now. and it seriously lagged like FUCK. no other words to illustrate my anger. LOL.

okay. so i check other classmates who have the same laptop model as me. their RAM was 3GB. and the strange thing was - my RAM was only 1GB?

so i decided to purchase a 2GB RAM to feed my gaming needs and to rid my laptop of all these annoying lag-ness. so i went to harvey norman. apparently when the salesman took my RAM out. there was already 2 RAM cards inside. so he said there was 2GB. i was blur cos i rmbed clearly that i only had 1GB of RAM.

apparently the 2GB RAM wasnt fixed properly =.=

SO I'VE BEEN USING A 1GB RAM FOR 1 AND 1/2 YEARS WITHOUT REALISING IT. OMFG.

okay. im happy now. LOL. the annoying lags are GONEEEEE (:

next up.
ribeye steaks. for my family. special mushroom sauce which i've made. (: a little special ingredient like starch to the mix would make everything all the better! :D

yums. oh and not forgetting the celery and tomato cherries. eat your veg lest you kena constipation. LOL. i swear you'll shit stones out. and your asshole would feel like you've been sodomized.

*wriggle eyebrows violently*

opps. okay back to main point.

er wait. what was the main point again? =.=

nvm i'll go chill now. ciaos for now.

yin and yang

2009-11-21T02:51:00.001-08:00

headed over to SP to support Aishah yesterday after school - saw azie and amanda too. haha. mr and ms SP. was pretty okay. except for some contestants which were SERIOUSLY buang.

buang till i dunno what to say man. LOL

and yes! im proud to say that Aishah is Miss SP 09/10

:D:D

tired week. W55P field trip to admiralty park was pretty fun though. haha!

class picture! (:
minus away the annoying andre on the extreme left of this picture lol.

think my photography skills were not too bad despite given such a cock camera. LOL. epic i swear. i thought the camera couldnt zoom. HAHAHA.

the picture with the ants was cool and i never knew it was the larvae secretion which the worker ants used to 'stick' the leaves together. cool shit uh? and the last one with the weird looking fruits are known as the Nipah Palm fruits - they're responsible for the 'gula melaka' which are used in chendol etc. AND! they are the ones responsible for the attap chi too! OMGOMGOMG. (: (:

pp assessment falls on the 28th this month. cant believe i actually mixed up the dates and thought it would clash with my trip to japan. i even emailed the person i/c LOL.

epic. and i made up some white lie that i had to pay my respects to my grandfather who lived in japan blah blah black sheep. HAHAHA. opps. :X

okay anyway, events lined up for the upcoming holidays would be:

1. W55P BBQ @ East Coast Park on 19th Dec
2. W55P post Christmas gathering over @ Vivian's on 21st Dec LOL
3. Trip to Okinawa Japan - flying off on 22th Dec. oh gosh -.-

busy 3 days lol. zzz.

but nonetheless! looking forward to it! heehee! :D:D

oh and yes! i've found something of interest.

ever heard of the twin married blades? Kanshou and Bakuya.

cool shit names and behind those names laid a history which was pretty interesting too.

Kanshō and Bakuya (干将・莫耶) are the "married" twin swords. The black sword is Kanshou, the Yang, and the white sword is Bakuya, the Yin.

A pair of swords with a strong bond between each other, not only they attract each other but are said to return to their owner when lost. Their quality as swords is high due being made with the best materials and a human sacrifice, and they also serve as ceremonial tools for socery. When both are equipped, magic resistance and physical resistance improve for the wielder, apparently.

But words thought to be a charm against demons are carved on the blades - okay i don't know what they mean by this lol

Divine skills, flawless and firm
Our strength rips the mountains
Our swords split the water
Our names reach the imperial villa
The two of us cannot hold heavens together
—Two rivals, walking their own life.

They were made by the famous craftsman Kanshou (Gān Jiàng) in the Spring and Autumn Period. It seems he was more crafting for the sake of crafting than for the idea behind the creation. Kanshou's wife, Bakuya (Mò Yé), gave her life to melt the metal and create the married swords that represent the Yin and Yang.

cool huh? (: kinda heart wrenching.

okay whatever. i'm starting to go back into Norse mythology. where the 13 knights protected Yggdrasil aka The World Tree.

okay enough crap. i'm hungry. lets eat! (:

woahhh

2009-11-18T06:36:00.001-08:00

hmm gymmed. like not that long.

chionged like some mother fucking idiot. i also dunno why. for what reason, for what purpose. LOL

oh yeah. i vomitted. AGAIN. wtf! spoilt my gym mood. zzz

and now vivian is asking me to help her right an essay - What are some of the values and beliefs you hold strongly to? Please provide examples of how you have demonstrated these in your actions.

okay. time to KO. nights~!

the crimson

2009-11-14T07:49:00.000-08:00

hooked laaaaaaaaaaa

the crimson by Atreyu

FREAKING HARDCORE THEIR HEAD BANGS OMGAWD.

i particularly like the chorus:

Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?
Will you still kiss me the same,
When you taste my victim's blood?
So crimson and red,
I feel it flowing from your lips. (Crimson and red)
My heart is dead and so are you.

*wriggle eyebrows violently*

music heals the soul. apparently this kinda genre of music does for me.

lol

bzzt!

2009-11-14T01:49:00.000-08:00

oh man fucking hope i dun needa go under the knife for my back injury.

eeeeyuh. doctor made it sound so bad.

okay maybe it is really bad. but he didnt need to exaggerate till i was stumped. rawr.

slip disc at the age of 16. hmm not bad. good job aaron. LOL

friday the 13th was really jinxy.

rather epic actually. but erm. got one part of the jinx was kinda saddening for me. zzz. wlao. pek chek. ugh.

so what's next?

there's lab for chemistry to look forward to next week, and the much anticipated environmental science field trip! woohoo!

oh yeah. PP assessment date is out. i have to go get my poster done FAST.

thanks Amni for your poster! at least i have something for reference \m/

heehee.

and yes of course, my environmental science class w55p. a chalet or bbq soon on dec 28th. wheeets!

so many things which people do to try to cheer me up. woah. thanks guys.

appreciate it! (:

but then again. im feeling kinda sad whenever i think about it. tried hard. but hey. not easy. sheesh.

boomz shingz fa cai.

im outta here.

just another day.

2009-11-12T06:48:00.001-08:00

her tears don't fall, they crash around me, her conscience calls the guilty to come home.

hmm..

honestly i didnt know what was i doing this morning. zzz. normally i would wake up, bathe, etc, get ready for school.

this morning i stoned at my window for 15 mins. and i got on the wrong bus. 506 instead of 59. ended up in jurong east. great job aaron.

immunology class today. totally had no mood to do the work. sheesh. fucking MHC class 1 and 2 molecules.

ugh.

woke up, opened my eyes to nothing to look forward to.

kena scolded by Li Han. kena until gao gao(damn fucking bad it means LOL)

haiya. and nice song. intro-ed by Li Han too.

It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching
For any sign of the ones he used to love
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left)
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There's more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies shes been fed
She's searching for no one (but herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is here
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

(So tell them)

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
You're not, you're not alone

dunno if i should attend the bachelor party which Aaron Yeh invited me to. aye. tempted. but maybe not. i'll still stay true no matter what the circumstances. (:

just so you know.

your gaze transformed my very core. you are my essence, my heart.

unfathomable

2009-11-11T05:06:00.000-08:00

for me to actually shed tears. unthinkable but true.

unfathomable human minds.

we would all be psychics if we could read each other minds and know them inside out, now wouldnt we?

thinking about it. i could have been too nice, maybe it's just me, maybe it's just my personality or my character.

i would never have been bothered by whether i was getting a 100% love which i put in. whats the point if all we think about is reciprocation? all i did was say leave it as it is. no need to worry whether i'm feeling the love. its okay (:

thanks to jing hui. i managed to get thru this evening. the worst has yet to haunt me. i no longer know how to be strong. guess i'll just recede back into my shell and get back to my normal mundane life of studying, training, no more.

sucks i know. and no i'm not trying to be emotional here. i'm trying to release the last bit of sorrow i'm feeling right now. i do hope something cheers me up soon. or maybe she would change her mind for that matter, guess these things can't be imposed on one another. guess i'll just let the wind take me wherever and drift along. it's not like i have an obligation no more.

a video my friend showed me. kinda turned up at the wrong time. but no matter. at least it would be for laughs for my readers out there.

happy watching.

i do like their voices though. :/

zzz

2009-11-10T05:45:00.000-08:00

thinking about stuff makes me frustrated.

sheesh. maybe we're just too busy to even get a foothold of one another.

okay nvm. fml anyway.

O lvl MCQ tmr. last paper.

the only good thing so far. fml x 2

heading back to melbourne again this coming march. for IEP attachment. guess it would 4 weeks of fossil digging and 2 weeks of student leader blah blah black sheep.

fml x 3

or maybe more like my life is average. hmm.

oh well. so zzz. zzz till the point where i'll hemorrhage and just die. boomz, shingz = BYE (:

another MV.

think it would be a good illustration for my feelings right now? sheesh im not sure anymore, im not sure who i am no more.

fml.

when i'm with you.

2009-11-08T21:33:00.001-08:00

waaaa fucking sad.

zzz.

sorry i need an emo post to vent on.

2009-11-07T04:44:00.000-08:00

i just wished that sometimes i was able to read your mind, and know you much better.

when i think about it, i felt pretty disappointed about myself.

i can seriously just go die or something. i need to MIA myself once again, bury my head in my books and study.

guess thats the only way i'll find my solace?

but my mind about you has been made up. and i intend to keep the promise which i've made to you. (:

fml

2009-11-03T02:41:00.000-08:00

SI BEI SIAN AH.

I WANNA CRY LAH FUCK.

CAN I?

THE LAST TIME I CRIED WAS 2 FUCKING YEARS AGO.

I DUNNO IF I SHOULD BE HAPPY OR SAD.

FML. LITERALLY AND SERIOUSLY.

<3

2009-10-31T20:02:00.000-07:00

day with B proved to be fun.

considering that i've never once been to the science centre. okay fine yeah i'm a bumpkin. lol

science centre was fun. with B so obsessed with the scientific stuff there. HAHA. like a young girl, scurrying all over the place. heehee.

anyways, the main point of visiting that place was to see the exhibits on Body Worlds.

i swear those shit were freaking cool. but i kinda freaked out at some of the exhibits. all of the exhibits were of human origin. so we couldnt take any pictures due to the management wanting to preserve the integrity of their exhibits.

all hail Aaron Chua. i smuggled a picture anyway. LOL. it was a picture of a body slice of a giraffe. body slice meaning the cross section of the body, but it looks like those that went thru the ham slicing machine.

eeeyuh. okay nvm lol

tmr's O lvl physics for me. and i have to head to school for my immunology test. ugh. fucking sickening. i swear man.

been refreshing my mind on the formulas and stuff. however, i think i can never do electricity. LOL. man i seriously suck knob at it. HAHA.

alright. before i go off.

my million dollar picture with my dearest (:

next stop pulau ubin alright B? (:

<3 <3

fireflies

2009-10-29T17:51:00.000-07:00

uh. im hooked onto the song 'fireflies' by owl city.

zzz. thks to B. wth.

i've got 246 plays of it in my itunes in a span of 2 days. LOL.

i'll be going for the chiangrai trip in march next year. service learning trip. going there to build a bioreactor for the less fortunate ppl there :DD

pulau ubin soon B? haha. excellent place to sell you away. *wriggle eyebrows violently*

-------------------------------------------

this line i thought of it - although it doesnt make any fucking sense. LOL

i wont blame you for thinking with your heart.

guess that kinda shit happens a lot. HAHA.

ciaos.

oh right. BODY WORLDS TMR. WHOOPIE! (: (:

ecstacy

2009-10-27T18:18:00.001-07:00

train more of abs. woohoo they hurt like hell. zzz. haha. nvm (: (:

this saturday with B over at science centre for the body worlds thing. it kinda freaked me a little. but well looking forward to it. (:

okay im shagged, hungry and i want my holidays. FUCK.

my holidays start on 15th december. omg. shit im gonna be saboh-ed already.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. whyyyy. ugh ):

FML. zzz

haha. body worlds body worlds. im excited.

:DD

kk time for chemistry.

argh

2009-10-20T07:53:00.001-07:00

ugh fuck it. i think my old back injury is acting up again.

=.=

not a good thing, the last time it hurt so badly i literally just toppled and flopped on to the ground. i couldnt even get/stand up.

arghhh.

zzz.

now im feeling the same sensation again. the bone piercing pain smacked along with strength sapping effects.

):

good luck to me. i may be disabled soon lol.

a heart for only the both of us (:

2009-10-18T05:34:00.001-07:00

school for four days straight seriously sucks. ugh.

singaporeans do go thru major crisis every single bloody day. first we had the merlion getting stuck by lightning - ppl were saying it was a bad omen - BOOMZ. then we had someone who favoured zipbra preens and leypord preens which went BOOMZ! literally,

and now? major crisis alert. *the merlion went extinct in 1965* ZOMFG lah! i wondered where she saw the merlion - her dreams perhaps? or maybe the last one died when it got struck by lightning back in 1965 LOL

opps okay. HAHA.

oh yeah. joke of the day on friday - andre. once again. matthew - our facilitator was talking about how oxygen might deplete, and there he was, choking himself and saying - look faci! i can't breathe, i can't breathe!

HAHA. epic answer came from matthew - okay then you go outside to breathe. LOL.

and then yesterday was ZOO with Kris. had loads fun. i think...? LOL. sheesh. the zoo did change a whole lot from since the last time i visited there back in primary 3? which was roughly more than 10 years ago. haha! ah meng died. thats one change. LOL.

there's this picture with Kris in it which i totally like:

:D Kris do change your fb picture to this? haha! <3

okay now pictures of me doing stupid stuff. as usual quoted by Kris. LOL

your everyday sharp antlers.

and your everyday sharp dick (:

LOL.

gonna start taking driving lessons tmr. waking up early to get my fucking PDL. ugh. why the fuck isn't the traffic police opened on sundays? lazy ppl. sheesh!

i knew i loved you

2009-10-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

definitely a nice song. (:

kristine since the last one wasnt of the right frequency. hopefully this one will be better. haha.

(:

a tiring week

2009-10-11T00:56:00.001-07:00

indeed four days of straight studying sucks man.

sheesh why the fuck is my free day monday. not a good thing. never was never will be.

headed to the national library to check up some stuffs regarding immunology and environmental ecology. waaaa why so broad one. T.T

met up with kristine too. poor dear was stuck in the library doing her research for her project work. and her hands were freezing. noob. haha! okay kidding.

went to have dinner over my cousin sister's cafe.

walked all over again. wlao. then kena suan-ed by her like as if i dunno singapore like that. basket. i take you go and sell then you know. *rawrs*

looking forward to this saturday's zoo. im seriously tempted to feed you to ANY carnivore which we meet. LOL

noob shit take care of your back. relapses will occur i know. and it worries me. ):

for my dearest krissy toad pterodactyl gibberish.

2009-10-07T08:05:00.001-07:00

okay i told you that i would find the song's mv.

but the mv has this super weird ending where the guy would go BOO. so i found one with just the lyrics! haha. (: whoever said metal bands cant have good nice songs uh? heehee.

yay for the good times ahead of us. and may a not a 'high' yay for the not so good times too. but yeah. haha. (:

and pls do pause my playlist of 'LOUD' music before listening. HAHA.

just a quickie!

2009-10-06T08:37:00.001-07:00

a quickie now. haha. i need to sleep. gosh im so pooped. zzz

alright so now. school has once again commenced. okay i dunno whether sian or not lah. but im glad im back to school learning. haha. (:

but i have 4 different classes to go every single bloody day for this semester. sucks i know. but aye. what to do. i have a Retard People over at my school. lol.

met up with kristine after school. kena abused again. HAHA. i swear man we did stupid things like going inside popular reading primary school vocab and cloze passages LOL. HAHA. okay i know my chinese sucks now that i've been out of touch from it for so long. hao lian to me lah. stupid ya ya papaya. basket. haha!

headed home on the circle line with her. so yeah. concluded. LOL. tired.

KRISTINE WONG TOAD ML TOAD PTERODACTYL SPERISHES GIBBERISH - IM GLAD (: HAHA. you know lah hor. i dun think i needa spell it out! :DD you rock! :DD <3

chemistry class tmr - heard its about transition metals. dunno wtf we needa know. bahh. wth. just DO it!

oh yeah a joke for the night. (:

[Smart man + smart woman = romance] [Smart man + dumb woman = affair] [Dumb man + smart woman = marriage] [Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy]

peace out!

krissy toad!

2009-10-04T03:37:00.000-07:00

went out with krissy toad and we got lost in singapore. HAHA.

epic. i dun even know my way around orchard. gosh. and there we were walking all over the place. haha.

walk in walk out. walk everywhere. walk till lost. LOL.

and she kept bullying me. boo. nvm i'll bully her again. heehee.

had dinner over at paradiz centre. good japanese food (:

bus-ed home and still didnt know the way. JIA LAT LOL. haha!

The moment when we're meeting will play out like a scene, straight off the silver screen.

2009-09-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

went to the gym with kristine today. okay so i may stay in the east but not know the east THAT well. HAHA.

that girl made me worried -.- when she described the bball court in the cc and i didnt know which one it was. gosh. had to rack my 1 tetrabyte memory just to think of the place she was talking about. zzz

ran around the stadium..

then it was time for me to chiong weights! woah shit man. i didnt do weights for quite awhile. soften already T.T LOL. then kristine decided to do more cardio - i suppose lol.

lunched.

crapped... ALOT.

she 'studied' for her promos apparently.

not a muggertoad but a consistent-toad cos she claims she does her homework and revision consistently.

and someone who loves erm. lets just say a certain of dinosaur - LOL. oh oh! her zoo is nice. I THINK. HAHA

okay im shagged now. literally. what to do...? i suppose i'll go sleep now. or maybe just stare at the ceiling till i doze off or something!

GOOD NIGHTS! (:

Happy birthday Aishah!

2009-09-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

to my dearest sister! (: happy birthday! haha.

and thanks for having me over at your exclusive lunch party LOL. the food was good!

cake was the sex. wow gosh. ambience was cosy. (:

meet a few new friends. wow some were jokers LOL. 2 of them dancers. wah im like the only muscle head down there T.T

haha. nonetheless hope you liked my gift. :DD

liang yu asked me to update.lol

2009-09-24T02:28:00.000-07:00

spiderwebs she claimed. haha.

alright. a quickie. my eyelid's a lot better. only left with the bruisings which the doctor told me of already.

been working. getting my pay soon! woohoo!

rather, the holidays have been productive enough.

PP's done. amended last night according to the advisor's guidelines. and thanks so much to azie for helping me in the citation of my references. i know i was a kuku in that. LOL. and you had to sacrifice time for your fyp to help me. thank you. i owe you a meal. haha.

oh oh! and i passed my FTT as well. alright. one step closer to the license. :D

sheesh, school's starting soon. gpa turned out pretty well. heehee.

what a bore. i cant find enough excitement these days. boo.

P.S take care of yourself liang yu. (: dun collapse. haha

eye operation

2009-09-08T20:00:00.000-07:00

so i went for the eye operation today. just couldnt take the pain any longer. LOL.

but seriously i woke up at 7.30am and only finished everything - including waiting time at around 6 plus. =.=

more than 12 hours ? more than 3/4 of the time was spent on waiting. -.- seriously too much lah. wasting ppl's time. zzz.

and now i look a pirate/kakashi/bad guy. lols.

upload pics later. still hurts :/

friggin sian

2009-09-08T01:05:00.000-07:00

okay a quick post.

my right hand is back to normal. LOL.

but now my left eyelid is swollen. visited the doctor - he told me not much could be done because this isnt the common stye or bak chiam(hokkien) which ppl are so accustomed to getting.

apparently mine was due to the blockage of an oil gland which caused the swelling. i thought some tumour or what when the doctor say nth much we can do -.- wtf LOL.

ANDDDDDD.... the medicine isnt bloody working. medicine to relieve swelling is already exhausted, the cream is pretty much useless. =.=

now it's swelling even bigger than before. zzz wtf lah. so i'd have to visit the polyclinic tmr. i think they have to cut it or something. argh. sickening. its hurting like hell. _|_ although i like pain, well not this time. its on my face dammit. MY FACE! _|_ =.= _|_

oh yeah. i found a new song titled - Losing You
Band name - Dead by April

the MV. only for those who can/know how to appreciate slightly metal but alternative genre songs, dun fucking flame me for it -.-

oh yeah. dota 6.62 ai map is rigged with bugs. i patched my client to v1.24 and oh gosh, there was no recipe when i wanted to buy my yasha, and the ai disappeared halfway thru the game. wth? friggin wasta ma time.

and im outta here. take care guys! (:

day out sucks.

2009-09-02T23:45:00.000-07:00

argh. badminton today early afternoon, that guy. omg man. i may not know how to play very well, but at least i got my basics. wah piang i dunno what to say seriously. lols.

then originally was supposed to be from 11 - 1pm. then extended to 2. cos 2 ppl were LATE. REALLY LATE. =.= wah i cant stand ppl late. zzz.

supposedly to be turning up at 12, they arrived at almost 2. =.= and we had to extend another hour. not that im against them, but i feel that it is only right to turn up at the time you stipulated yourself, especially since you gave the timing yourself. its just not right to come late.

then after that dunno who's bright idea to go ALL THE WAY until causeway point for a movie. wah piang. somemore final destination. knn. im not too good with grotesque stuff, although i do LOVE, LOVE pain. heehee. okay *er hem!* that aside. =.=

i damn sian to do planning already. plan already ppl wanna late nvm, still come later than late. wah sian diao. i damn pek chek can. i was about to the pack up and leave at 1.30 zzz.

bah. sian-ness shit to the max.

okay nvm its over already so im over it. i just hope next time punctuality is placed first. if you know that im referring to you, but dun take it to heart okay? i just buay tahan ppl late. LOL

ohh and i think just screwed my right hand =.= too long nv play alr. wah knn. zzz help my forearm is trembling! ):

new skin!

2009-09-01T01:59:00.000-07:00

haha. changed my skin.

thanks to my bestie. okay i know i suck with codes. gosh stop thinking that RP's module on VB codes were useful. to a science student - all he could ever do was to smoke thru~! :X

well yeah. thanks alot BESTIE! (:

but then i was webcamming/chatting with her and realised something.

my link is www.zeroshikidropshot.blogspot.com

and i listen to metal genre songs by avenged sevenfold

AND.. this current skin is the cute cute kind.

=.=

a little mismatched on each side of stuffs uh? HAHA. oh well.

unique-ness. LOL.

nights for now. (:

Avenged Sevenfold

2009-08-31T00:25:00.000-07:00

man i think gunslinger and scream totally rock.

gunslinger is slow at the but then it accelerates halfway through. \m/

LOL.

scream - avenged sevenfold themselves have said that the song is about the pleasure of murder. *shakes eyebrows violently* ^^

no work tmr. tuesday im off.

wednesday badminton with AH family + the radiance carrying leech. hmm..

oh well. back to the songs. i wanna try something like what happens in the MV of 'a little piece of heaven' when i get older or when im caught by some incurable disease.

guys do watch the MV and tell me if im crazy. i know im not... now. HAHA!

okay i know my blog has been dead. LOL

2009-08-26T21:40:00.000-07:00

ppl reading this. dun not i repeat do not scold me just cos my blog has been dead for like a few months? LOL.

the current semester's over and done. kinda fast though. piece a shit. why so fast. kns. i still rmb my year 1 sem 1 class was a total flop, opps i meant wreck. wait, which words means more jia lat? LOL.

i loved w45m, and its the same with w55l. with the exception of one hypocrite!

lich like you've never LEECHED before. gosh i think anyone from w55l reading this should know what/who im referring to. HAHA. :/

oh well. a semester has passed and UT 3s has flown by like a raging but passing blizzard.

i guess i was able to mingle well with most of my classmates, of course there are a few whom i've become quite close with. the AH family. weird name i know. who came with it? go interrogate our egyptian princess aka AH HUAY!

btw im AH BENG -.- wtf ^%#$%#$@#@

HOW COULD THIS BE! i mean... JUST LOOK AT MY FACE! it's destined to be someone good. okay a little too far fetched. LOL.

LOL that aside. life's been alright so so. no excitment so far. im waiting to see who's the next person able to make me excited in such a long while. -sigh-

chalet's next month. badminton this coming tuesday. im gonna own the piece a shit. he says he's good in badminton - we'll see. :DD

off i go!

2009-06-03T03:43:00.000-07:00

bye guys! i'll be in flying to sydney tonight! (:

be back next wednesday!

take care!

au revoir!

truths LOL

2009-05-31T14:26:00.000-07:00

6 TRUTHS OF LIFE

1. You cannot touch all your teeth with your tongue.

2. All idiots, after reading the first 'truth', will try it.

3. The first truth is a lie.

4. You are smiling now because you're an idiot.

5. You will soon forward this to another idiot.

6. There is still a stupid smile on your face.

HAHA. damn funny.

went training ytd and met up with kim hong after that. had fun tgt i think. LOL. kena bombed by her with the riddles which i totally could not break. LOL.

watched terminator salvation. not bad. but damn weird some parts of it. haha.

just returned from gym with jeremy. i've gotten stronger. i know it. HAHA.

leaving for sydney in 3 days. AND MY LUGGAGE ISNT PACKED. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

nvm slp first. LOL.

UT's approaching!

2009-05-21T23:04:00.000-07:00

UTs for chemistry, rDNA and biochemistry are next week!

gosh. today's chemistry class was a big flop. i could only understand a little portion of it. and i explained it to what i understood. haha!

had lunch with mich. talked a little.

i dunno how she can be so careless as to break her specs while working lol.

talking about her.

screw buses man. 168 took SOOOOO freaking longggggg. omg lah.

i still think mrts are more reliable in terms of arrival time. lol. argh cant wait for the holidays. im going to sydney again. visiting my relatives and some downtime. but before i head there. i wanna get started on my PP.

procrastination sucks. i know everyone does that, but its due to that sole reason ppl are always lagging behind and failing. haha.

alright time to float to lala land. (:

hmm..

2009-05-16T09:29:00.000-07:00

ppl say when one door closes. another opens. man i dunno how true this statement is, but for one thing i do know.

i gave up the opportunity once. and i dun think i want to let it slip out of my hands again.

gosh i sound so emo.

LOL.

UTs are coming. PP scope approved. YEESSSSAAAHH!

time to continue working. argh.

you fucking wasted our time.

2009-05-12T21:08:00.000-07:00

Hi miss natasha. This is the email regarding events of which had happened during our ‘meetings’ for the past 3 weeks.

First of all I’d like to highlight that our first week’s meeting was the only time we EVER had work done. Where reshmi couldn’t even get our bunch to listen while she tried ever SO hard to get our attention, until yun hua stepped in to help and our work was assigned to us.

Last week’s meeting was a disaster. Really it was. We take our time off – of course not everyone was present, we cant help that – and our ‘meeting’ was revolved around reshmi chowing down on her subway rather then asking us or herself for that matter to do ANYTHING productive all. The rest were chit chatting.

Her email spamming is one of the thing which irritates not only me, but probably lots of others.

All I can summarize is that – her spammings are USELESS. Pls take note about this. She talks more than she does anything. Just by verbally telling what to do she expects us to do things to her expectations which I think is utterly ridiculous. Because personally vivek and I are not tech savvy and we totally do not know how to do any photo montages.

I’ll get back to that in awhile because that happened in today’s (12/5/09) meeting.

Reshmi set the time for the meeting at 4.30 – and I was already for the meeting along with xiu hui. Because our class ended late. So we rushed to W55B only to find yun hua . where was reshmi? She was at subway! Wheee!

And we waited till roughly around 5.10 – 5.15 when she slowly strolled like a princess, that was fine by me. But she spent almost 30 mins munching on her subway and her cookies, another 30 mins was gone with her hindi songs and her obviously hideous shaking and singing. So vivek and I tried our hardest to do the montage by ourselves, she didn’t help. Guess what? She was commenting on how we should just play around with the programme, since no taught her, she wasn’t gonna teach us too. Until yun hua offered to help, I really don’t know whats wrong with helping us for that bit?

We had plenty of time to do any videos. Oh I was playing a game when she came in and she didn’t even take the initiative to tell those present already to go take the video. She was happily eating.

Guess how much had already elapsed? She then suggested the lawn, I think it was a waste of our time, because all those present were telling her the classroom would suffice? So vivek and I finished up our slides and had to leave because we had something on. She was threatening us that she wouldn’t put us in the video. Vivek and I said fine by us. Because if you were gonna question where were our faces. She’s be screwed even if she said it was our fault. So I got really pissed and we left. Halfway down toward south agora, kasturi called and told us that they were already at the lawn. So vivek went soft and decided we should wait. We walked at the lawn toward W5 and we only saw kasturi. The rest? Still upstairs dragging and slacking. Ridiculous enough? Hoho! That’s only half of it.

Reshmi called vivek and said they’d be down in 10 mins. After 10 mins, vivek called her and she said they changed the location from the lawn to E5. I think this is too much, we sacrifice our time for this and she comes with all sorts of funny stunts which can really piss someone off. And the best part of all? She DOESN’T give a hoot as to what people have to say – she once told me this, she does things and says things when she deems its right in her own eyes. I really feel like typing this report with more than just personal attacks and vulgarities.

Oh and miss Natasha? She’s not fit to be in charge of anything. I hope you will see to it and change our I/C because I think she lacks every single quality a leader has to offer. Nothing productive enough has been done thus far.

this was my report to miss natasha.

bloody reshmi think we so fucking free like her. oh btw? her fashion sense sucks. and she compared herself to sharon raj which is a real fair and hot indian. reshmi? HAHA!

im feeling sian.

2009-05-11T21:50:00.000-07:00

biochemistry today.

ADP + Pi = ATP - synthesized

gosh plenty of stuff.

ATP is known as the energy carrier molecule too. because once its broken down, energy is used.

im glad i know whats going on. zzz.

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happy birthday cherine. somehow i feel weird. i gave her the cake. yeah had to run to get one. my mom ate ALL the cakes i baked ytd zzz. i specifically asked her to leave a piece for me which was meant for cherine. omg lah.

woke up in the morning and nothing left. =.=

ran to get one. wtf. zzz.

i couldnt get over who was meeting after that. hais. aye nvm that.

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i still feel sad, mixed emotions actually. sheesh. im outta here.

just leave me alone

2009-05-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

people just leave me alone.

i hate it when i lose.

sportmanship my foot! im losing to someone who has a job. a car. an income. FUCK.

i think i can really just give it up lah. ccb.

this post is gonna be ugly.

so much for effort uh. yeah man, he's smart and all. fuck. okay nvm.

she's into him. so im outta the picture now i guess. its alright. i'll just keep it quiet for now.

i hate losing. i really do. i lost lotsa stuff alr. now i gotta lose this too. fuck 'effort'!

seems like im about to lose this one too.

!!!

2009-05-10T14:27:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

to my mom - thank you for putting up with all my nonsense for these past 19 years. okay make that 18 years and 5 months. HAHA!

and of course, wishing the same to all mothers as well!

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CHERINE THONG KAI LING loves scolding ppl asshole.i think she dun have siol. LOL!

its okay.

2009-05-09T10:03:00.000-07:00

had a nice talk with shaika yesterday after class. she was telling how she was ALSO always getting stuck with younger guys. LOL.

so i listened in and got little sian-ed when she told me that she were to choose someone else of a higher calibre eg. doctor, lawyer, not exactly lah but those in training and the guy who was chasing her? she'd definitely go for the doctor or lawyer.

reason being?

simple - they have a income, more mature, know how to think better etc.

whereas what do the younger guys have? hot headed-ness, known as hooligans in some cases, immature, much less a stable income.

as much as i didnt want to hear that, the ugly truth was as such. nothing i could do about it though.

seeing things progressing as they are. im just gonna do what i can for now. and not hope too much.

getting my hopes too high will only result in a more painful, harder crash back to earth - equivalent exchange people.

we can never have the best of both worlds, no matter how much we wish for it or work hard to obtain it. that is the basis of this earth.

in order to gain something, something of equal value must be lost. doesnt really help when im already sinking to the bottom of the despair pit with everything going on around me.

school was alright for the whole week. i think im starting to get the hang off things.

microbiology class turned out to be more like cultural and asthestics class.

lab was fun. i used the gloves to make balloons, stole some extra ecoli(intestinal bacteria) and cultured it to become purer when the teacher wasnt looking. and pls note - im the SAFETY OFFICER. LOL.

grades are turning out fine. i love chemistry more and more.

vesak day today. met up with my sec 5 clique last night. its always happy to see them, thinking back on how we meet in sec school. gone thru all the stupid crazy laughter to grow together. and now we're all over the place. haha!

gonna hit the gym later with vivek. god knows whether he's really coming anot. nvm i'll hit alone if i have to. twice per week i'll hit the gym.

emotional downfall

2009-05-07T22:58:00.000-07:00

im feeling like shit once again. i say i wanna forget those team memories and start over.

but tears just fill my eyes and i cant help it. i really cant. im going through this huge emotional fountain.

people have been asking/pulling me to dragonboat. gosh i want to.

but i already kinda made my mind to go dutch. i was thinking of just training by myself at least i wont have to go thru all the political shit again. and suck cock like that guy on canoe.

i'll nv like him. just like how my eyes treat that benjamin(the fucker who went to melbourne too)

they're so predictable. trying so hard to gain recognition, can never lose, lose then wanna charcoal with others. mofos to the max yo.

-suddenly become major bitching session ah?- LOL

i oso needa say im offically wishing my hands of reshmi. she's beyond hope. she's irritating and she's self conceited. gosh. i just wanna slap so hard that her head turns 360 LOL.

okay enough bitching.

nites.

weights? WHACK only! HAHA!

2009-05-06T18:21:00.000-07:00

hit the gyms today. freaking shiok. all the familiar pains were coming back. HAHA!

called bertrand last night? guess what? he told me:

aiyah you wanna follow what you did for canoe training go ahead lor, if not, just WHACK the weights LOL.

went with jun hao. my current semester classmate. haha. he was overwhelmed by the way kai jie and i tackle the weights. LOL

back, triceps, biceps, abs, traps, upper and lower chest, deltoids. okay i dunno what other minor parts i've trained. but these are the main ones i did train. haha

i did the declined pullover. OMG. lower chest = CHUI!

okay nvm. im gonna train my lower chest. wheeees!

saturday go again? or once a week? i was thinking twice PER week. LOL.

li han is joining me next week. coolios. haha. must relac relac when gymming with girls. dun wanna scare anyone anymore. jun hao was scared stiff alr. LOL

im sad

2009-05-05T20:27:00.000-07:00

i was walking to the sports complex today after lab. lab was fun.

but little did i know that my day would have turned dull. walking out of the W6 canteen. i saw a horde of students doing warm ups. Canoe style.

i knew those were supposed to be my would-have-been juniors. suffering one year of hardships and shit were mentally and physicaly draining. nontheless fun.

i saw them. i saw tomi, yusri, nic, kelroy, marcus, jaffar, cath. i was so sad. i wanted to go back. i had the sudden urge to. i feel sad.

took my charger from angeline. and went to w55a. where i teared in front of azie and next, hana. i couldnt help it. im feeling so empty inside. where the flame once roared endlessly. i wanted to be a part of RPCanoe once again. the jersey's we've worked so hard for. the pain and the sweat.

im feeling very down. went to hana's class after that. and i decided to look out of the window to see the juniors slogging their guts out. it was heart wrenching to see my ex teammates yet not be able to join them. i wish i just didnt fail the attendance and attended more saturday trainings. after all coach kai yang holds the veto. what could i do?

im gonna hit the gyms starting tmr. on a regular basis. i dun wanna rot at home and be some useless shithead no more.

thks cherine! appreciate it. (:

PHOTOSHOP?!

2009-05-04T21:44:00.000-07:00

i swear man. i NEVER ever wanna have anything to do with photoshop EVER again!

i was UP all night! trying to figure it out. LOL and trying real hard to finish up the REAL impt thing. freak it man! i finally came up with something. but uh. lol. okay nvm -.-

student was late! she asked if she could extend the timing till 9! i said fine! then at 8.55 she came to me with this HUGE PILE of books. asking this and that. so i asked her.

hey what time you want me to go home? 12 midnight?

she said CAN AH?! woah good! erm but needa pay extra?

i was staring at her with my eyes WIDE open - with the 'omg wtf' look! LOL

and only when her brother laughed at her, did she realise i was being sarcastic. LOL gone case..

but i gotta admit though. she got the makings of the typical singaporean auntie. HAHA! =P

rDNA lab tmr yo! EXCITED. WOOHOO!